Help Me (Peterick AU) [COMPLETED]

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Patrick's POV

I jolt awake when there's a sudden heavy weight on my shoulder but I get blinded by the light. Stupid windows in the middle of a stupid hospital room, whoever designed this is now the person I hate more than anything.

The weight turns out to be Pete who springs straight back off me, yanking his head away from my shoulder. He's perched on the side of the bed and the sudden movement makes him yelp and fall on his ass. It's totally stupid but I can't help giggling a little while he gets to his feet with a blush "I didn't think you'd wake up yet"

Pete seems hesitant but slides in next to me, keeping his finger on the call button in case he needs to get someone. I don't know why he bothers because I'm not going to attack him or hurt him. I'd never ever hurt Pete and it horrifies me that he might think I would.

I open my mouth before something but before I can Pete punches me in the arm and hisses "Why would you do that? How could you? How bloody could you?". He's already tearing up which I've seen him do too much lately and I hate myself for causing him anymore pain. I was so stupid and selfish and didn't even think about how badly I could end up hurting Pete.

I try to reach out to touch him but he jumps off the bed and wraps his arms around himself. It's breaking my heart so I try to explain but I don't think it does any good. "Pete I'm sorry, I just lost control and wasn't thinking, I didn't want to leave you I just went too far"

Pete looks close to tears and sobs out "I trusted you and you tried to fucking leave me when I need you most, get your shit together"

That's the first time I've ever heard Pete say a bad word so I'm too shocked to react. Pete doesn't wait for me to get it together and slams the call button before running out of the room.

A nurse comes in to redo my bandages and check my vitals then after some arguing let's me go after Pete. I'm shaky and unsteady in my feet but luckily Pete's only sitting against the wall across the hall. He tries to glare at me as I sit next to him but the tears running down his face ruin it.

"Patrick please just leave, you scared me so bad and I don't know what to feel now. I had the best day I've had in so many years and I wanted to be with you and make it better. Instead I found you cutting yourself and almost dead"

Hurting Pete makes me wish more than anything that I could go back in time but I can't, it's impossible. Instead all I can do is slide an arm around him which he luckily accepts. "Fuck, I'm sorry baby, I couldn't help myself, it was just a bad moment and I won't let it happen again"

Pete rolls his eyes so I pull him closer "I'm serious babe, you matter more than anything else. I can never stop my stupid self destructive thoughts but I won't let them control me, I'm going to get better for you"

After a long silence Pete sinks into me and murmurs that he loves me. We stay in that same place until the nurse comes back and says I'll be ok to go back to the mental hospital. As long as I have Brendon with me all the time for the next week and I'm not allowed near anything sharp, I should be fine. It's reasonable I guess and at least they're not taking Pete away from me because that'd be the worst thing.

When we get back Brendon runs over to hug me tight then shove my shoulder hard "Asshole, how dare you? You're not going to leave my sight for a year, I will literally watch you shower if I have to"

Brendon's silliness makes me feel a million times better so I bump his hip with mine "Isn't that supposed to be for Ryan? I don't think your boyfriend would want you watching other men in the shower"