Help Me (Peterick AU) [COMPLETED]

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Patrick's POV

When I wake up Pete's sitting cross legged on the floor reading a book. I watch him read until he notices I'm awake and puts down the book to run into my arms. Crying like he did last night always makes him very physical and clingy which I do enjoy even if I wish he wasn't upset.

I hold him close as he giggles and says "What did you want from me today? What do you wanna do?" I think for a while about that before settling with "I just wanna hang out with you, I've missed you a lot"

That makes Pete look sad and he pouts as he plays with my collar "I'm sorry for not paying enough attention to you lately and for kissing another man. I shouldn't be prioritising someone over you or kissing them during time that should be spent with you"

It's exactly what I was hoping to hear since I found out about Russell but I feel bad about it. He's finally living his life so he shouldn't have to apologise to me about it. "Baby I don't mind, you're going back to school so you have a lot of work to do and friends are important. I don't want you kissing anyone else but I don't mind you spending time with other people as long as I get some time with you"

Pete snuggles against me and curls up in my lap whispering "I love you". He cuddles up to me then bites his lip and gets more nervous than usual "Dr Williams told me you'll probably be leaving soon, you've only relapsed once so you don't need to be here. She said something about you moving in with Brendon so your life will be amazing. Maybe we can see each other still though. I might be allowed to go out on weekends and if you still want me I'll be there as much as I can"

I'm glad to hear I'll be leaving and maybe living with my best friend but I hoped Pete would be with me. I love him so it'd be hard to go from seeing him everyday to only once a week. Getting out together and having  proper relationship would be amazing but we're just not at that point yet.

We're both kind of sad now so I try to bring Pete's spirits back up "We'll work it out darling, don't worry about it before it even happens. I'll always be yours because I love you to death"

I guess Pete's not too upset ab the whole thing because he cheers up just from that. He watches me silently before giving me a cheeky little smile "Babe have you ever worn a dress with Brendon?"

That makes me groan loudly while Pete giggles and wraps his arms around my neck. I guess that's why he wasn't too worried about me leaving because he's thinking about something much more amusing.

Half of me really wants to run off because I didn't really want Pete seeing that but I can't bare to leave him. I did it with Brendon and knew Ryan would see but I didn't even think about them showing Pete. When he sees me blushing Pete gives another adorable giggle and kisses the tip of my nose "Ryan showed me a picture, you and Bren looked really cute"

I try to stutter out that it was a dare but Pete doesn't seem to care so I give up. All I can do is pout at Pete until he squishes my cheeks and says "You looked adorable, don't be embarrassed when you were next to Brendon who looked like a stripper"

Teasing Brendon's something I'm much more comfortable with than my boyfriend seeing me cross dress so I sigh. I'm about to say he probably is a stripper but realise it's Pete and sling my arms around his waist "Don't say stuff like that silly, you're way too innocent for Brendon's dirty ways"

Pete sticks his tongue out at me so I grab him tighter and flip us over so I'm hovering over him on the bed. Again he sticks his tongue out then pulls me down fully on top of him "I'm 16 you dumb dumb, I'm not as innocent as you think"

That's probably a lie because I know Pete's super innocent but I guess I might be exaggerating it. He's going to high school now so he's going to learn a lot of things it'd probably be better he didn't learn. I kind of like it though because I don't have to censor myself around him as much. I can be kind of dirty and explicit so it'd be nice to be able to do a little of that around Pete. Nothing close to what I'm like with Brendon but I can never resist a few questionable jokes.

Me and Pete roll around in bed, play fighting and kissing until Pete flops down, completely exhausted. He pulls me down with him and kisses my shoulder gently "You're still coming to school with me right? I'm kind of scared to see Russell again so I really want you there"

I promise Pete I'll be there so we both catch out breath before getting back to kissing. I really planned to actually do something with Pete today but I'm more than ok with this. Lying in bed kissing Pete makes me happier than almost nothing so there's no way I'd stop this.

Pete's gotten so much more confident with stuff like this which I'm really loving. Lately he's been loving getting in my lap while kissing which is both of our favourite things now. He likes being cuddled up close to me and I like having him on top of me controlling the kiss and being more confident.

Eventually Pete pulls back and rests his forehead against mine while he pants. His hairs gotten pretty long lately so it falls forward from behind his ear and makes a little curtain across our faces. It's adorable and makes it feel like there's nothing in the world except us.

Pete gives me another teasing kiss then whispers "I love you so much and I love being with you. One day I want to stop being broken, I want to have sex with a man I love and I really want that man to be you. I know that's a long time in the future but I dream about it sometimes and it's really beautiful. You've never really told me if you're still asexual or if you've realised something different but I want you to know how I feel. We don't have to have sex but if we can one day I'd like to. Trusting someone like that would be the ultimate form of love for me so it'd mean everything to be able to do it"

That stops me for a second because my sexualities still a bit of a mess at the moment. I know I'm not fully asexual because I've had a lot of R18 thoughts since meeting Pete but I'm still unsure. Thinking about your boyfriend naked occasionally is very different from actually having sex.

Pete must see me looking confused because he hugs me close and gives me a small sad smile "You don't have to say anything babe, just think about it and whenever you've made decisions I'll be here. Nothing like that is happening any time soon so just figure out your sexuality and who you are, no rush"

That makes me relax so I can enjoy the gorgeous boy perched in my lap. We've barely done anything so I run my hands up and down his sides as I figure out what I want to do with the rest of the day. "Let's spend the rest of our time just talking, I want to know everything possible about you"

Last time we tried doing this Pete freaked out and told me all his trauma but I hope this is better. He's in a much better place now so he won't freak out over a few facts about ourselves. I know Pete told me one time he's super self conscious about not knowing who he is but maybe I can help. He might not know who he is or who he wants to be but we have time and we can figure it out together.

Pete looks really nervous but focuses on stroking my hair before saying "I like drawing, I'm not good and I haven't done it in ages but it used robe my happy place. I used to draw all the time after my dad hurt me because it made me happy to put things in perspective. I'd like to draw again sometime for you but I don't know. I've never really drawn people but I'll try doing one of you whenever I can. Dr Williams might not think its a good idea since I used to draw after abuse but I'll ask. It's something special to me so I want to try it again and get to share it with you"

That sounds like a really good idea so I eagerly support it which seems to make him happy. We tell each other dumb facts about ourselves until it's time for Pete to go see Dr Williams.