Help Me (Peterick AU) [COMPLETED]

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Patrick's POV

When I wake up Pete's still asleep so I stroke through his hair until he murmurs at me to stop and cuddles closer to me. I keep doing it until he reaches up to grab my hand and grumble again.

I giggle and give him a little kiss then gently put my hand on his stomach "Do you wanna get up and get breakfast or would you rather stay here a while?"

Pete murmurs and burrows further into me so I presume that means he doesn't intend to move. Instead I cradle him against my chest and wait until he looks up at me "Patty are you self conscious about anything?"

He sounds so small and scared so I give him another kiss and nod "Of course I'm self conscious, everyone has something they don't like about themselves even if it's not big or obvious. The scar on my chest is a big one for me and it's something I have a huge issue with. Plus I get pimples really fucking easily and my skins terrible. I get a sunburn super easily which makes me look like a tomato and my lips are always really dry and sometimes bleed. There's lots of things about me that suck but they're not huge things and I'm used to those stupid things by now. You can't escape insecurity, all you can do is learn to live with them and not let it ruin your life"

Usually I try to think about everything I say to Pete before I say it but this time I just let everything out. We've gotten really close and I think I can trust him to be ok no matter what I say. Trying to censor myself can be really exhausting so I'd love it if I didn't have to anymore. I'll never be the same way with Pete as with Brendon but it'd be nice to be a bit more free and say whatever I want.

It seems like Pete likes what I said because he leans up to kiss my lips then hums softly "I've never noticed your lips bleeding, you must wear a lot of lip gloss to make them so cute and shiny and soft"

That makes me glare at him and poke him in the side "It's not lip gloss, it's some kind of stupid medicinal lip balm stuff. Don't be a little bully after I told you my insecurities, this is supposed to be a safe space for talking you little dick"

We're both giggling so we end up kissing like we often do. Trying not to ravage Pete is easily one of the hardest thing I ever have to do so if I don't have to hold back I usually don't. Eventually I end up on top of Pete with his arms around my neck holding me to his lips. I manage to slip my tongue into his glorious little mouth before Pete pulls away and shoves at my chest "You're crushing my bear asshole"

That shocks me into giggles so I slump down further onto him until he shoves me hard. Finally I give in and roll off him while he hugs his bear closer and pouts at me.

Pete looks adorable but I'm not happy about his bear getting more love than I am. Carefully I pry the bear off him then crawl into his lap. Despite his complaints Pete doesn't seem to mind it too much because he pulls me closer and whispers "You're such a bad influence, I'll miss you so much"

I promise I'll miss him like hell too before pulling him back into a kiss. I get a few seconds of glorious kissing before Pete pulls back, looking kind of upset. That's such a change from before so I watch him in concern until he stutters out "Will you miss me though? I'll spend most of my time thinking about you and missing you and drawing for you but you won't. You'll have Brendon and you'll make new friends so you'll be too busy for me. Maybe you'll even meet that pizza guy Brendon talks to and fall in love with him so you won't need me anymore"

There's been such a rapid change from the cute flirting and I really don't understand. I'll miss him more than anything and I've told him that again and again so I don't know how he can still doubt that.