Help Me (Peterick AU) [COMPLETED]

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Patrick's POV

It takes a lot of pleading with Dr Williams but she agrees to let me buy Pete a present for his birthday. She makes me promise to check it with her to make sure it's safe and won't trigger him but I'm still super happy about it.

I spend the rest of the time until dinner planning what to get him but finally I decide on a bracelet. I've seen a couple of other people wearing jewellery so I know it's allowed as long as there's nothing dangerous on it. It'd be nice to see Pete wearing something I got him and I'd love to have him wear something claiming him as mine.

Dr Williams seems happy about the idea so I spend ages on Brendon's phone with him. Finally I find a bracelet made out of lots of different strands of brown rope and I definitely like it. It'd suit Pete and it's a tie on one so he couldn't easily get it off unless Ryan helps him which Dr Williams will like. I love him and I would never want him to get hurt but some of the rules are slightly over the top. He's not suicidal and doesn't self harm so I doubt he'd do it and a bracelet is completely harmless anyway.

I'm so excited now and Pete asks me lots of times as we eat why I'm so happy but I don't wanna spoil the surprise. I lie and say I really like the soup we're having and Pete obviously doesn't believe me but doesn't push.

To make me even happier Pete has a whole bowl of soup and a couple of bites of the muffin I get. He's gotten so good lately and it makes me happier than anything to see him healing.

After dinner Brendon and Ryan leave after Brendon whispers to me that he'll make sure to get the bracelet. I'm really excited now and I can barely sit still all night. I'm so hyper and talkative so we decided to just play monopoly so I can talk the whole way through. Despite Pete being shy the game ends with us arguing about whether I can legally take 1000 dollars off him 3 turns in a row. I totally can because he keeps landing on me but he doesn't seem to like the idea and storms off after a while. I have to pack up the cards he threw at me and spend a while apologising before he kisses me goodnight.

He's adorable when he's mad but I do like getting kissed at night so I don't wanna let either of us go to bed annoyed. If we don't let arguments get worse then we'll sort everything out between us and won't let this relationship fail. Even if it was just over a board game this time it's still a good idea.

The next morning I wake up in a really good mood which immediately crashes when Brendon comes in. He tells me my parents are here waiting for me with Dr Williams so I have to go see them. I'm super grateful for him warning me but I'm really pissed off at my parents for even being here. How dare they come in to somewhere I feel happy and safe and ruin everything for me?

I take a long time getting there but when I do my parents are waiting there like Brendon said. I try to stay calm but that lasts about 5 seconds before I yell at them to get out.

That quickly devolves into my parents telling me I'm a disappointment and me telling them what shitty parents they are. Dr Williams let's us go at it for a minute before coming over to put a hand on my arm. I like her too much to keep making a scene so I stop yelling with a huff. She leads me to a chair near my parents and goes to sit back at her desk, already looking exhausted.

For the next hour she tries to start peaceful conversation between the three of us but we don't make it easy. My mother is incapable or not making bitchy comments and I'm incapable of not replying to them. Somehow Dr Williams keeps it from turning into a full fight but it's far from friendly.

She tries to talk to me personally about how family relationships can be important to healing but I'm barely listening. I know for people like Pete who do have people who care about them it's important but not for me. All my parents have every done is make my life worse so I don't ever want them back in my life. Maybe it'll stop me from healing but at least it'll stop me from wanting to kill myself again.

When Dr Williams finally sees that neither of us are willing to budge she tries asking why I'm so resistant to this. I could tell her an alphabetical list of why I hate them but luckily my mother gets there first. She scoffs and says "He's just a stupid faggot who can't deal with his own dumb emotions" so all I have to do is look at Dr Williams. I may not be making this thing easy but I strongly believe I'm not the biggest problem. As a kid all I wanted as a relationship with my parents but they quickly showed me that's a stupid thing to wish for.

From that point it devolves into another argument until there's a knock at Dr Williams door. She looks relieved for the break and goes to open it while me and my parents still fight.

I don't notice what's happening until Pete wraps his arms around me. I immediately stop fighting and focus completely on Pete. He calms me down so much just with a simple touch and I didn't realise how much I missed him until right now. I'm terrified of what my parents might do to ruin this but for now I just sink into Pete. I whisper that I'm sorry for yelling but Pete shushes me and keeps holding me.

He's probably scared because I know he hates yelling and fighting but he's hiding it so well. Pete's gotten so strong and I'm so proud of him because he'd never have been able to do this a few months ago. Me yelling probably would have completely ended our friendship but now it barely phases him. That warms my heart so much and I'm so grateful for this little angel.

When Pete pulls back he gives me a little smile so I can't help leaning in to peck his lips. I know my parents will cause hell because of it but I'm learning not to care. It's not like me being gay is anything new and there's nothing they can say they haven't already said before. The only thing they could ever do to make things worse is upset Pete. If they hurt him or make him sad in any way they're dead to me forever.

Dr Williams looks much happier when Pete lets me go which I'm glad about. I don't know if Pete heard what was happening and came to help or if she got him but it was the right thing either way.

I'm in a good mood now but my happy little bubble is instantly ruined when I hear my mother snort out "Disgusting sinning faggots". It takes so much self control not to start another fight but I manage to look at her relatively calmly "You're so full of shit. Don't spew bullshit about it being a sin when we're not even fucking religious. I'm fucking happy for the first time in my life and if you were a decent parent you'd be fucking happy for me"

My voice is starting to raise again so Pete covers my lips with his to make me shut up. I'm so close to crying now and I can feel myself loosing it when Pete pulls me to my feet.

Dr Williams doesn't stop us so I let Pete lead me out of the room and into the hallway. There's no one else around so I can just sink to the floor and bury my head in my knees. Pete kneels down too and holds me until I compose myself then gives me another kiss "I'm so sorry about the babe, will you be ok here while I go back and see Dr Williams? I want to get the key to the garden so we can go out there and calm down"

I give him a nod so he kisses the top of my head then runs back to get the key while I hold back my panic.