Help Me (Peterick AU) [COMPLETED]

5

Patrick's POV

I don't see Pete for the rest of the day and he doesn't turn up at dinner so I can't talk to him and apologise. I don't see Ryan or Brendon either so I'm all alone for the first time since I got here.

I eat as quick as possible then go back to my room to hide and read some more. Usually Pete brings me hot chocolate at night but for the first time he doesn't which makes me feel even worse. I just really hope I haven't screwed anything up with one stupid moment.

I lie in bed for a long time but can't sleep so instead I just think about Pete. I'm starting to become a silly obsessed teenage girl but I can't help it. He's just such a sweetheart and he's the cutest boy I've ever seen so I don't know how to stop crushing on him.

Over time my dreams move away from my regrets and get slightly dirtier. All I can think about is how nice it would be to be able to touch him and take care of him like Ryan does. He'd probably give amazing hugs and holding his hand would be the best ever. I try to stop myself but I can't help thinking about how it'd feel to kiss him.

Pete would hate me if he knew what I was thinking but my mind refuses to shut off. He doesn't even want me touch him but my disgusting ass is here thinking about getting intimate with him. I know for most people kissing is nothing but for us it'd probably be huge. I'm asexual so I doubt I'd go further than kissing and Pete's so sensitive so I doubt he would either. Just getting to hold his hand seems like an impossible task so there's no way I'll get to kiss him. My mind doesn't listen to logic though and I keep thinking about Pete until I fall asleep.

I'm woken up by Brendon in the morning and I'm just really glad he's here. I try to apologise for yesterday but he insists I didn't do anything and Pete's the only one who's upset. At least now I have Brendon so I feel a lot better about everything. If I have to I can deal with loosing Pete but not Brendon, he's my closest friend and I can't loose that.

We spend a long time at lunch eating different types of cereal and joking around. It just confirms that Brendon's definitely the kind of person I want to be friends with. He's so cool and we have the same sense of humour which makes everything so much fun. Plus he's super physical so I really love having his arm around me. I can't deny I'd prefer it to be Pete but having anyone who wants to hold me and be close to me is really nice.

Neither of us mention anything more about Pete but Brendon talks a lot about Ryan. He says they went on a date yesterday and Ryan asked him out properly. After Brendon said he'd been pining over Ryan for months I'm really glad they finally just got together. They're adorable together and get along super well so I'd bet money that they'll be good together.

We spend most of the day together, me doing school work to catch up and Brendon writing a paper. We take breaks for snacks and more poker games, betting with pillow fights because we have nothing else.

When it's time for therapy Brendon's super eager so I follow him there easily. Ryan and Pete aren't there so I hang around the door with Brendon until it's about to start. Both of us are pretty disappointed that the boys we like aren't here so I grab Brendon in a hug then go in. He smacks my ass as I go so I laugh and flick him off while going to my seat.

I'm still pretty sad Pete's not here but luckily he slips in right before we start. He sits next to me like before but doesn't look at me or say anything. I wish I could apologise and make things right but for now I'm just happy he's here. I feel so bad for upsetting him and I really just hope Ryan's been looking after him. He hasn't been at any meals which scares me because he already has eating problems and it would kill me if I made that worse.

The group goes the same as always and neither of us have to talk so I just listen to everyone else. When it's finished I don't move from my chair and neither does Pete so we're the last ones in the room.

We sit in silence until Pete looks over at me then drops his eyes quickly "I'm sorry Patrick, I shouldn't have been mean and ignored you and been so dramatic, I'm sorry"

He sounds so upset so I drop my hand between the chairs and breathe out a sigh of relief when his hand brushes mine. "You have nothing to apologise for Pete, I was the one who crossed a line. I'm really sorry I touched you and I promise if you're willing to trust me again I'll be better and respect your boundaries"

Pete doesn't say anything else but he does slip his fingers through mine, holding tightly. I'm frozen for a second before curling my hand around his, giving it a reassuring squeeze. I don't know if this is him letting me touch him or if he's doing his touching game again but either way it's nice.

I happily hold his hand while his other hand strokes his way up and down my arm. He traces the tops of my bandages again then slides down to touch every inch of my hand that he can reach. It's slightly weird and I don't know what he's doing but it seems to make him happy. I guess maybe he's trying to get used to me so that me touching him will be easier when we get to that point.

Dr Williams walks back into the room and when she sees us she gives us a smile. I'm smiling like an idiot already but Pete blushes and drags me to my feet to pull me out of the room. Brendon and Ryan are outside talking and don't notice us so we stand near them waiting for them to finish flirting.

While we wait Pete moves closer to me and keeps touching me with his free hand. It's a weird feeling but I love it more than I should. His fingers are so soft and gentle running over my skin and I can't help enjoying it. Having an adorable boy touching me and seem to really like me makes me so happy.

When Ryan finally notices us he smiles and wraps an arm around Brendon's waist as he turns around too. He doesn't comment on the fact we're holding hands but he smiles at me and Brendon gives me a thumbs up.

Ryan waits for Pete to say anything then reaches over to rub his shoulder "You feeling better Pete? Are you and Patrick friends again?" Pete gives a tiny little giggle and nods as he keeps touching my arm "We're friends again and yeah I'm feeling better, I'm really sorry for being dramatic"

All three of us reassure him that he's not being dramatic and everything's fine. Pete seems pretty easy to cheer up so I'm glad he's happy now and feeling better now that we're friends again. Pete seems happy about the whole thing and smiles up at me then leans his head against me. It's so cute because his head can rest easily on my shoulder and he just fits against me so perfectly. The top of his head brushes the bottom of mine so I can lean my head against his and tuck his head under my chin.

I'm trying really hard not to freak out but inside I'm screaming. There's a cute guy cuddled against my shoulder and holding my hand and I'm one of the only people he'd allow to do this. The cutest guy I've ever met wants to cuddle with me and I love it even if it's in front of our friends and our therapist.

We decide to spend the rest of the night playing some more board games. Pete spends the whole time holding my hand continuing exploring my arm and shoulder with his finger tips.

When we finally have to leave and go back to our separate rooms he hugs my arm which is adorable. As much as I wish we could properly hug I'm just happy he wants to give me anything.

I don't want to leave and be alone for the rest of the night so I wish there was something I could do. I kind of wish I could sneak into Pete's room to spend more time with him but that would be a bad idea. I shouldn't break the rules when I'm still new here and turning up in a guys bedroom in the dark is very stalkerish. He's getting better with me and he's ok with touching a bit but I doubt he'd react well if I just turn up.

Without Ryan or Brendon anywhere near and when we're totally alone in the dark Pete would be terrified. I'd love it if he did come in and spend some time with me but I doubt he'd have the confidence to or that he'd want to. I don't know how well he sleeps or whether he's scared if the dark or if he likes breaking rules or not. I'd like to get to know these things though, they're just little things that would be fun to learn about Pete in the future.