Help Me (Peterick AU) [COMPLETED]

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Patrick's POV

I'm so proud of Pete because he is actually trying to help himself and get better. We sit on opposite sides of the table holding hands and Pete slowly eats his way through the smallest salad we could find. It's small but it's still more than he usually eats and when he finishes it I'm really proud.

While I finish my own food we keep holding hands and Pete plays with my feet using his. Eventually his foot starts running up my leg and rubbing along my thigh. He's getting close to somewhere I really don't want him to be but it feels better than it should.

I'm not sure what he's doing because his eyes stay glued to the table as his foot rubs higher. As I finish the last of my food Pete's foot eventually pressed lightly to my dick before immediately springing away. This whole thing has gotten me half hard which I'm ashamed about but isn't something I could have stopped. Pete looks so ashamed but follows me from the table back to his room.

I sit down on his bed and pull him down next to me but Pete looks so ashamed and it breaks my heart. He nervously reaches out for my hand so I grab onto it before he has a chance to second guess himself and pull away. Neither of us really know what to say but finally Pete stutters out "I... I'm sorry, I thought it'd be fun and I just wanted to touch you but I didn't think, I'm sorry".

The whole thing wasn't too bad but the end did freak me out a little so I'm glad he is sorry for it. It sucks that he's freaking out so bad but I'd be even more worried if he wanted to do it again.

I've been struggling with my asexuality lately and I know I am still mostly asexual but Petes changing things. I don't want to strip naked and have sex with him right now but being intimate doesn't seem like the worst thing. Of course we wouldn't do anything any time soon but doing sexual things a few years in the future is a nice thought. We both have a lot of growing and learning to do before then but maybe one day, who knows what might happen.

I don't know if I should tell Pete this but I decide it's too much too soon. If I start talking about anything sexual it might scare him and make him think I want something now. Neither of us want that or could handle that but I have no idea what dark places it might make Pete's mind go. I don't know if he'll ever want anything sexual again so it's better not to mention it for now. If he's decided to never let a man near his body again it would be bad for me to start saying I want things. Even if it's a long time in the future Pete might never heal completely so I'll wait for a better moment.

Quickly I reassure Pete everything's fine but also ask him not to do it again. Playing around with our feet under the table is absolutely fine but getting too high is too much. Pete completely agreed and apologises a few more times before being certain I'm not mad at all.

Once we've worked everything out Pete lies his head in my lap and asks where Brendon and Ryan are. I haven't seen them since this morning so I tell him I don't know.

We're both kind of bored now so we decide to watch the first Harry Potter movie. We've both read the books multiple times so we're pretty big fans. Plus the movies one of the only ones Pete has that isn't a cartoon which is a welcome change.

Since we don't have our guides with us we leave Pete's door open to make sure no one has a problem it's this. No ones ever said anything about it before but better safe than sorry. As we watch the movie a couple of guides do come past but once they check on us they go on their way.

Eventually Ryan and Brendon turn up and watch the last 10 minutes with us. Apparently they were making out in my room and finally decided to come and do their jobs. I highly doubt they were only kidding but I'm glad they're keepi things pg in front of Pete.