Help Me (Peterick AU) [COMPLETED]

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Pete's POV

Patrick takes a really long time in the shower so when he eventually comes back I'm really bored. Happily I pull him into a hug then jump onto my bed with a giggle. I'm feeling super good about what I did and what happened but Patrick seems weird.

He's perched at the end of my bed so I try to pull him back towards me but he just wiggles away. My heart instantly drops and I regret everything I've done today. I should have known this was all such a bad idea, why would he ever want to watch me do something like that? No one wants see their ugly underage fucked up boyfriend sucking on a piece of fruit. He ran off after I was done and now he doesn't seem like he wants to be here.

Maybe he told Brendon about it and they were laughing behind my back. Maybe Brendon told him he should come back and tell me I should never do something that gross again. Maybe he's going to break up with me now.

Patrick's never wanted anything sexual but I did the exact thing he doesn't want. I wanted to be sexy and give him something special so he'd know I was open to doing things like that in the future. It was a stupid idea though and I should never have done it.

It was so freaking weird, it wasn't like I did it to him or a proper sex toy or anything, it was a freaking banana. It wasn't sexy or something he wanted to see. I didn't make my boyfriend love me more, all I probably did was make sure he'll never eat bananas again.

Patrick's not saying anything so I sit against my headboard and stare at my lap sadly. Since he obviously isn't interested in me right now and doesn't wanna be here I won't try to go over and do anything. Normally I'd just crawl in his lap and ask what's wrong but I already know what's wrong. I'm the thing that's making him annoyed so doing more sexual things won't make Patrick happy again.

I should have done something different to make Patrick remember me and keep loving me when he leaves. This will just make him happy to be away from me so he'll try to find someone better, which won't be hard.

It's something I've done a lot in private because I am gay and it's something I want to be able to do. If I find a man I love and want to marry then I want to do it for him, that's why I thought Patrick would like it. It's private and no ones ever seen me doing that before so even though it's weird I wanted to show Patrick. We tell each other secrets and I would be comfortable telling him anything so I really hoped he'd think it was nice. Even if he thought it was weird I thought he'd understand how scared I was to do something sexual in front of a man.

This wasn't what I wanted afterwards, I wanted him to maybe say he liked it or that it was nice for me to trust him. I didn't want to scare him away but that's exactly what I've done. Maybe if I apologise and promise to do something else he'll forgive me for being stupid and making him uncomfortable. I don't wanna do a real blowjob but if Patrick would prefer that then of course I'd do that for him. If I let him dominate me and show me how to do a proper blowjob it might make him happier. Then he'll know that even though sexual things scare me I'm willing to do them for him. He'll know that in the future I will give him the blowjobs he wants and I'll actually do them well.

Carefully I slide over and put a hand on Patrick's arm "I'm sorry Patrick, I shouldn't have done that, I'm sorry I made you angry. I know I'm annoying and stupid so I'm sorry for doing that and expecting you to like something that useless"

I look down at the bed and wait for Patrick to tell me what he wants. After a long pause Patrick finally touches me to pull me into his arms and let me press my face to his chest. I start to apologise again but Patrick kisses the top of my head gently and shushes me. "Don't apologise angel, you've done nothing wrong and I'm not angry at all. Even if I was you don't have to be scared or apologise if you make a mistake, I'd never hurt you"