The Worst & Best Thing | Joe Sugg

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"You sure they're not there or coming?" i ask sitting in the passenger side of Caspar's car.

"Yes, Emma. Jack made it very clear to Violet not to come. Why would she want to go to a party where her boyfriend and best friend don't even want her at?" he reassures me.

"Ex best friend and boyfriend." i remind him.

"Now, stop making excuses. Cody won't be here either cause he doesn't know Zoe." Caspar exhales then gets out of the car. I sigh in annoyance and look at the Sugg household from the car window.

The party started an hour ago but i've been trying my best to stall.

Such as, changing outfits, fixing my makeup, trying to make excuses not to go inside.

Caspar has obviously had enough considering i made him late, i can't blame him. He doesn't even come to my side of the car, just goes straight in because i can tell he's annoyed.

Not only annoyed at me but at Lucy because she bailed on him to hangout with Allison. Allison wasn't invited because she's Alfie's ex girlfriend, so Zoe has beef with her.

Ashley should be here though. Hopefully.

I finally open the car door and step out. I breath in the fresh cut grass smell of the outside and then grab out my phone.

Me: Are you here yet???

I was a couple minutes.

Ash: yes!! where are you? I see casp.

Me: meet me by the stairs.

I click send while walking up to the house. Lucy Ashley and Allison all know about Joe and Violet and Cody. They don't want to get in the middle of Violet and I, but i can tell Ash is more on my side than hers.

"Little late." she smiles at me giving me a hug.

I just shrug. "Yeah, well." she takes my hand in hers "There's a photo booth, come on we have to take some hot pictures!" she says enthusiastically dragging me to the machine.
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"So." I start to say. "Have you seen Joe?"

She nods her head. "Uh, yeah. Only twice though. First time i ran into him. Literally." she lets out a laugh. "He asked if you were coming."  i look at her after she finishes that sentence. "I told him, i didn't know." i swallow hard nodding my head.

"Second time I saw him chugging down a beer. Per usual."

I glimpse around the room trying to see if i can see him. Instead I see Zoe talking to some random, she catches eyes with me and her eyes go big. I can tell by that gesture she wants me to save her.

"I'm gonna go say hello to Zoe." i tell Ash.

"There you are! Alfie has been bugging me to find you." i say to Zoe grabbing on her arm with a smile and she returns one as well.

I face the random guy and he gives a small smile. "Sorry, gonna have to steal her from you." i say leading her away.

"Thank you!" she exhales in relief.

"He wouldn't stop talking to me about how amazing his 13th birthday was. I'm a genuinely nice person but i really couldn't stand that story."  we both share a laugh. "Well, it's no problem. Happy Birthday!" i give her a hug.

"Aw thanks." she smiles. "Where is Alf, by the way? He owes me a dance." i point in the direction of where he is. "Goodie." she takes a step forward then lets out an "Oh and-"

she turns to face me. "Can you tell Joe to come back downstairs? He went upstairs for a smoke." my tummy twirls at his name.

She rolls her eyes at his absence and walks away. I bite my lip, really not wanting to go see him. But i don't want Zoe knowing what's happened.

I try to look for Ashley, so she can do it instead but i don't find her. I literally looked everywhere and i even called her.

I stomp angrily upstairs to find Joe. I look in his room and call out his name but he wasn't there. I hear some sort of chopping noises coming from the bathroom.

Intrigued i go and open the door.

My hand places over my mouth at the sight i see before me.

Joe has his finger closing one of his nostrils as he uses his other hand to hold a folded up dollar bill to his other nostril and he snorts up some white powder off the sink.

"Joe what're you doing!" i push him back from the sink. His eyes are red and teary.

The sight of him makes me want to cry.

"It helps." his voice breaks as he speaks. "I'm numb." he lets out a small laugh as a tear falls from his eye.

He breaks out of my grip and my eyes are waterworks, he goes back to the white powder and i grab on him "Joe, no! Stop!" i let the water fall from my eyes as i turn him around.

I place my hands on his cheeks.

We're both in tears. "You can't do this. This isn't you. You're drunk."

"I'm always drunk." he croaks out in a disappointing tone. His arms wrap around my waist and he buries his face in my neck. I bite my lip and breathe in deeply trying to stop myself from crying any more.

"Come on." i swallow, releasing from the position. I look at him with a gentle smile.

I guide him to his bed and he lays down in it. He takes off his sweatshirt as i take off his shoes. I go back in the bathroom to clean everything up and dump the powder in the toilet, so he can't have it again.

I walk back out and see Joe asleep.

I start to walk out but here his voice. "Emma." he whispers. My heart breaks hearing him say my name.

"Please stay." he begs. I can feel the pain in his words.

I've now seen two different sides of him. His angry side, and his hurt side. There has to be more he's hiding, he wouldn't do this just because i was mad at him.

I turn around, closing the door.

I take my shoes off then my denim jacket off and slip into his bed. He wrapped his husky arms around my waist and buried his face in my chest as i ran my fingers through his hair