I kinda hate having my phone back
And I might've accidentally overdosed
My head feels like it's getting attacked
And I feel like I'm in a comatose
Ever since I got back
It's like "Do this, do that."
"We don't want you to leave.
But we kinda are deciev-
ing you."
And I kinda feel betrayed
But they only want what's best for me.
Yes I was trapped in that room all day,
But I miss that misery.
Now I have even more today.
I don't wanna die
But I also really want to.
I don't wanna cry
But I always know I have to.
I just want to live my life
Like a "normal human being"
But in my shitty world in the only "normal" I see.
Can someone else please help me.
Taking pills to change my personality
Drawing life so I can keep some sanity
Distract myself so I don't seem as crazy
As I did when you first met me.
I'm just a fucked up child.
And it's up my isle.
But I'm not really wild.
Cause is not my style.
But I don't have nowhere to go
And I'm feeling really blue
So when I say so
You can see what I can really do.
I'm a fucked up child.
A disastrous child.
A depressed child.
A real stressed child.
A kinda blessed child.
Not so expressed child.
Never at my best child.
But I'm only human
And I do make mistakes
I'm not from a zoo, man
But I handle more than I can take.
Your lies in my mind
Knives in my art.
I swear I'm not blind
Even when I fall apart.
So now my point has been made
There's no time to ask questions
Don't throw any shade
And stop giving suggestions
Now I have to go to sleep
To do my best for tomorrow
I'll try not to be cheap
And filled with sorrow.
