crush ✧ j.t

Introduction

i wrote this when I was 13 and i was cringe as fuck so read at your own risk

Perries POV

I see my whole world sit next to me on the sofa. The girl who thinks i'm dating a footballer, the girl who is insanely in love with a band singer, the girl who will never be mine; Jade Thirlwall.

I watch her hair fall over her face like a courtain as she sits down, and it takes all my willpower not to place the chocolate brown hair behind her ears.

It is now that I can't concentrate on her face that I notice her outfit. Her Bambi jumper, with some boots, that is all. God knows what's she's wearing underneath. I get my hand and place it on my own leg to try and stop me from running my hand up and down her bare leg. I snatch my gaze away from Jade and stare down at my legs.

I hear an interviewer start to speak. "Hello, I am Jack Maynard and this is capital. "We are here with Little Mix". I hear all three of the girls say hello in unison as I fiddle with my nails. I feel Jesy gently kick me. I dart my gaze up and see the whole camera crew staring at me, and I feel Jades eyes on me. "Sorry, I was in my own little world there", I say quickly, laughing to cover it up.

"Our Pez is a bit tired today, aren't you babe", I hear Jesy say. I look at Jesy and nod. "I think she must be hungry too, she's never at her best when she's hungry", I hear Jade say next to me. I feel the butterflies erupting for the fifth time today, and I turn to look at her, her brown eyes catching mine. I smile at her and turn to Jack, as if I would have looked any longer I would have kissed her. 

Jesy was the only one who knew about my love for my bandmate, after I got insanely jealous of her meaningless flanter in a bar one night, and blurted everything. It makes it a lot easier having someone to cover up these moments in interviews where Jade is occupying my thoughs.

We listen to Jack ask various questions, both of which Leigh-Anne started answering and Jesy and Jade joined in at. Any time I was going to answer Jade spoke which turned me in to a nervous mess, so I continued fiddling with my thumbs.

"So Perrie we have heard that you have a new boyfriend". I faked a huge grin and confirmed that I was taken to the camera. I couldn't help but place my hand on Jades soft skin as I spoke, gently gripping it as I spoke.

I was dating Alex, a british footballer. If anything it was to try and get over Jade, or maybe it was to cover up my love for her. Alex was amazing but I saw him more as a best friend, but the fans loved us together, so I guess it was okay.

When I finish talking I feel my grip loosen, having done lying about how in love I was with this footballer. I leave me hand on her golden skin and rub her knee gently. Jack asked us a few more questions, and as Leigh-Anne was answering a question I felt some hot breath fan across my face. "Are you okay baba?".

I feel all the composure I had shatter, as I imagine her mouth centimeters from my face. Even though every part of me was doing backflips I tried to stay calm. I looked at her, and now her face was closer than it was before. I smiled widely at her and nodded.