crush ✧ j.t

Chapter 14

Perries POV

I step up on to the small stage, some people looking up at me. I wipe the tear from my cheek, and take a deep breath, closing my eyes, and bringing the microphone to my mouth. This is the only way I could get my feelings out without no one knowing it was about Jade.

I remember since the first time I saw her, I knew I had fallen hard, but I didn't want to admit it. I kind of wish I would have kept shielding myself, because then I wouldn't be the mess I am now, singing infront of many drunken bodies.

I hung up the phone tonight

Something happened for the first time deep inside

It was a rush, what a rush

I remember the times where I split with Zayn, and how I was actually so happy he ended it. I couldn't imagine a future with Zayn, but I couldn't imagine life without him. I remember Jade ringing me from Japan and talking to me for hours.

Cause the possibility

That you would ever feel the same way about me

It's just too much, just too much

But inside I knew, she was only helping me as a friend, and she will never ever see me than more than that.

Why do I keep running from the truth?

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

I can never keep my eyes off her. When we are walking through corridors, or in interviews, or on stage, I just seem attracted to her, like a magnet.

And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone

All that we can be, where this thing can go?

Am I crazy or falling in love?

Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?

Are you holding back like the way you do?

'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away

But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

The second I finish the note I stumble off the stage, tears streaming down my face. Jade will never even know I did this. She won't know how much I listen to this song and think about my feelings for her. I softly put the microphone on the stage before I head straight to the bathrooms, that are deserted. I throw myself in to one of the stalls, and streams of water escape my eyes, probably leaving a trail of mascara and foundation down my face.  I cover my face to try and muffle my sobs, but if anything it makes them louder. I cry for not inviting Jade, for being so dumb and falling for her. I get knocked out of my thoughts by a knock on the door, which I ignore. But then I hear her. "Perrie, please let me in", she says more of a plead than a command.

an: OHHH SHIT YOU DIDNT SEE THAT COMING. I updated really quick as I felt really bad but this time I am going to leave it a few days as then next chapter will be hard to write!