crush ✧ j.t

Chapter 29

  Perries POV

"We need to be on the tourbus in half an hour. I would get changed". Before she gets a chance to look at me I spin on my heal and walk quickly towards the door. I open it slowly and close it behind me. "What did she say?", says Jesy. "I didn't really give her a chance to answer".

Jades POV

By the time I look up she is gone. After a few seconds of listening to her gentle footsteps I hear a door close and I sigh. I hate that I took out my anger on her. I wanted her to leave as I knew this would happen. I knew I would take out my anger on her. I stand up slowly, keeping my head down and I walk down the halls until reaching the dressing room. I rest my hand on the cold metal handle. I hear people chatting inside. I push down on the metal and open the door, and the chatting instantly stops, like I threw a sound granede in the room and I feel everyone staring at me. I keep my head down and use my hair as I kind of courtain. I dodge everyone, especially Perrie and Iwalk straight to the bathrooms where all our stuff is. I see all my stuff laid out on the floor neatly. I smile slightly as I know Pez did this despite how I treated her.

I peel the tight green material off my skin to reveal my plain black underwear, which I cover with some black tracksuit bottoms and a hoodie. I roll up the sleeves and look at myself in the mirror. I have massive tear streaks down my face and smudged black around my eyes.

I have to admit I made the whole thing alot bigger than it actually was but I couldn't hold in my anger for Leigh-Anne anymore, and she should have just left it. I pick up the makeup remover from the floor and put it on the small cotton wool pad that's left on the sink. I run it all over my face several times and soon all the makeup is gone. Now it is even more obvious i've been crying as my skin is red and blochy.

I pull the hood further over my face and place all the remaining items in the carrier bag. I pick it up and step out in to the room with the three girls in it. The second I open the door I cant help but let my eyes scan around the room. I see Jesy standing near the door on her phone, and Perries wrapped in Leigh-Anne's arms. I feel jealousy and anger fuel up inside me yet again, but I deserve it after the way I treated her. I catch Jesys gaze and I walk over to her. "I'm going to the bus", I say blandly, before stepping out the door.

Perries POV

I notice a newfound feeling of anxiety as I take a step on to the bus, behind Jesy. The second I get on the bus I see Jade curled up on the sofa, a massive blanket almost drowning her, her red glasses of her face and a book in her hand. I feel a desire to rush over to her, place my lips on hers and hug her under the blanket but I know I can't. She glances up at us quickly before looking back down. I notice her gaze doesn't reach me. "There's some food on the side", says Jade quietly, not looking up from her book. Her voice is weak, and I can tell she's not in to her book at all. I place the carrier bag with some of my stuff next to the door to the bunks and walk over to the table in the middle to reveal some pizzas.

When Leigh-Anne enters the bus I watch as Jades looks up to her and she abruptly stands up. "Im going to bed", she mumbles, walking past us and heading straight towards the bedrooms. I feel Jesy nudge me but I shake my head. "She wants time Jesy. She doesn't want to see any of us, not even me". Jesy frowns, but nods. I open the pizza box and my mouth waters at the plain cheese pizza infront of us. I pull out a chair and sit down, and Leigh does the same thing. "Well what do we do now?", says Leigh. I sigh: "There's nothing much we can do before she's prepared to talk. I don't want to push her".

We finish the pizza and I soon change the conversation to chats about the holiday we may be going on. As i'm cleaning the table I hear a door click open and it reveals Jade in the clothes I laid out for her and her glasses still on. But her eyes are red and puffy. They don't have their usual sparkle. Her skin is red and blotchy, and I can see a fresh tear streaming down her face. It takes all my whill power not to run in to her arms.

Jades POV

I look at her bright blue eyes and see they're slightly bloodshot. Her eyes scan my face and I see sadness in her eyes. I did this to her. I made her cry. I hurt her. "Can I talk to you all", I say, my voice barely audible. Perrie nods slowly. I look to my left to reveal Leigh and Jesy. Jesy has her arm around Leigh. Leigh-Anne is just staring at me, fear present in her eyes. I walk over to Leigh, deciding I would speak to Perrie alone. I see her flinch as I get closer, and Jesy releases her from her arms. "I'm sorry I over-reacted", I say, feeling even more guilt swell in to my body. "You did the right thing". I see a smile peak on her lips. She pulls me in to her arms. "Aww Poppey it's okay!", she says lovingly in to my arms. I smile and pull away, before turning to Jess. "I'm sorry you had to witness me like that". I then turn to take a glance at Perrie who has her eyes fixed on me, and when she notices i'm looking she looks down at her nails quickly.

"Do you mind if I talk to Perrie alone?", I say, nerves swelling in my body. Jesy and Leigh share a knowing glance and rush in to the bedroom area. "Perrie", I say gently when i'm sure the two girls have gone. She turns to face the sofa. "Perrie please", I say desperately, grabbing her small hips. She turns to face me, teary blue eyes meeting mine. "I get if you don't forgive me, as i've been such a cow releasing my anger on you, but I'm sorry. I love you". I watch as she wipes the tears away violently, and she smiles gently. "And I appreciate wanting you to help. I was just so angry and I knew I would shout at you or anyone that came to talk to me, so I just wanted you to leave so I wouldn't hurt you but I still did and I feel like an idio-". I'm cut off from my ramble by her gentle silky lips. The lips that remind me that nothing is as big a deal as I play it up to be in my head. I wrap my arms around her neck pulling her closer and I pull away. "Perrie H haven't finish-"

"You've said enough". She wipes my cheeks, getting rid of tears I didn't even realize we're flowing, and takes my glasses off, reaching out to place them on the table. The whole time I just keep my eyes on her lips, and soon they are out of sight as I feel them wedge between mine. She bites my lip causing a groan to escape my lips and she slides her toungue in to my mouth, and moves her arms from my back to my neck.

I feel weak at the knees of her forgiving me for being such an idiot. If I would have done that to Jed he would have never have forgiven me and even if we did sort it out, he would bring it up. But I can tell by the way she's kissing me that it won't be the case with Perrie.

I feel our toungues move in sync, and I soon find my hand under her thigh, lifting her up so she's straddling me. Her leg muscles tense around me I slump down on the sofa so she's sitting on my lap, and I run my hand through her tangled hair and tug at it gently, causing her to pull away. I desperately reconnect out lips, and she starts playing with the band of my trousers. I feel heat building up in my core and a loud moan escapes my mouth as Perrie pulls away and bites my neck, instantly finding my sweat spot. I roll my head back in pleasure and fiddle with the small straps of her vest. She pulls back and our eyes meet, and I sit and get lost in the different shades of blue in the dark lighting for what feels like an eternity. After a while her small thumb runs down the centre of my lips and she plants a small kiss on them. I smile at the blonde fondly and run my fingers through her long hair, trying to fix the mess I made it. "I guess I'm forgiven then", I say, a smile forming on my lips. "I would have forgiven you even if you wouldn't have apologised", she says slowly, simply staring in to my eyes lovingly. I cup her cheeks and kiss her forehead gently. "I love you Perrie". She places her head in the crook of my neck and I feel her breath gently fanning against my neck. I stroke the top of her head while whispering sweat nothings in to her hair. "Ill never hurt you again, "You mean the world to me"...

After a while a door clicks open and Jesys head peaks out to look at me and Perrie, and she smiles at us lovingly. Perries obviously notices how I suddenly stopped whispering to her as she looks up and looks towards the door, seeing Jesy. "Well, we should be getting to bed", I say gently to Perrie, running my hand through her hair. She smiles, unwrapping her legs from my waist and standing up, walking towards the bathroom.