crush ✧ j.t

Chapter 7

Perries POV

I step outside the building and thank my lucky stars there are no paparazzi. But the second I step outside I notice I don't have a plan after this. How do you even leave a band? What will I say to the fans? What do I say to the girls?

Everyone will try to stop me that's for sure. I could just run off somewhere, where no one would recognize me and I could move miles away from Jed and Jade.

I could step in and say it's a joke, and watch as Jade everyday breaks off another piece of me.

I snap out of my thoughts and look around, and see a taxi rank sitting a few blocks away. I sprint towards it and when I finally reach a taxi I leap in and say the address to my hotel. First I need to break things to Alex, and not just that i'm leaving the band, but the fact that I won't be able to be with him anymore.

I sit in silence watching the Canadian streets zoom past, and we soon reach the hotel and I take a deep breath, before paying the cab driver and stepping out.

I walk through the lobby and decide to use the stairs instead of the lift as I would have more time to plan what to say. I try to stop the tears from falling, and really I don't know why they're falling. It's not too late to turn around now and run back to the girls. It's not too late to go back before Jade finds out.

I stop in the middle of the steps. How would Jade react to that im leaving?

She would probably not care. She would probably just run in to Jed's arms and be sad for a split second and then continue her happy life. She would be better without me almost punching the only one she loves every time he touches and looks at her.

I take a deep breath, look down and run up the steps. Once I have gone up two sets of the spiral stairs I feel my body bump in to someone's. I stutter an apology before darting onwards. "Perrie", I hear Jades voice gently, and I feel her hand gently on my shoulder, the warmth of her fingers spreading down my arm as she runs her fingers down my arm. I turn to look at her and I see tears building in her eyes, and all my plans to run away disappear. "Don't leave me", she hardly mumbles, her hand running up to my cheek, her thumb rubbing under my probably blood-shot eye. I feel my heart shatter with a new kind of pain, the pain of hurting her.

"Weren't you with the other in the studio?"
"No I came back as I forgot my phone and Hesy just texted and... why?"; she says gently, her face now centimeters from mine, and he hands now resting on my shoulders. I feel my heartbeat go up as she gets closer. "Perrie, I love you".

I feel my knees melt as she cups her hands around my face, locking her teary, brown eyes with mine as she smashes her lips on mine. I feel her soft fingers rub against me and her lips mold perfectly on mine. It feels exactly how I imagined, but better. Like every unsaid word I have thought is rushing to her heart like a river. Like all my life has been building up for this moment. I wrap my arms around her back and I feel her hands sink in to my hair, her small hands massaging my neck. I feel a moan escape my lips but I suddenly feel hands pull on my shoulders and someone calling my name. My eyes fly open and i'm not found with Jades caramel ones, but with Claud's.

"God Pez, everyday it gets harder and harder to wake you up. I swear you could sleep through a tornado".

I feel my whole body just sink in to the mattress as I notice the whole thing was a dream. All the things I felt while I was "kissing her" I would never feel again. "Right c'mon lazy ass, the girls are waiting for you to come with us to practice the choreo for our next show in Canada". I roll my eyes and slump out of the bunk bed, pulling from underneath to reveal a draw with my clothes. I pull out a massive hoodie and some leggings and go in the bathroom to put them on, and while i'm at it I use the toilet and brush my teeth. I step in to the small lounge of our tour bus to reveal Jade curled up on the sofa with the two girls next to her rubbing her shoulder. "What's up Jadey?", I try to ask casually, even though my heart is breaking to see her upset. "Jed's just left, I won't see him again until next week". She says, her gaze meeting mine and lingering on my eyes. I gulp as I see her eyes full of sadness and... hope? As much as it kills me to see Jade like this, i'm glad Jeds away, even if it's only for a week. Seeing her so broken at being away from him makes the concept of my dream even more pathetic and unreal.

I bend down so i'm on my knees in front of her and she instantly wraps her arms around my neck, her head in my shoulder. I subcontially stroke her soft hair and I hear her take a deep breath before pulling away. She instantly meets her eyes with mine but looks away quickly. "Oh god guys I'm acting like someone's dead, I'm use to it, and if i'm not i'll have to. Now lets go practice!", she says leaping up, determination in her face. She leaps out the bus with Leigh-Anne and me and Jesy stay on last, and right before I see her step off I see her wink and nudge me, to which I slap her.

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We reach the dance studio which has a massive mirror along one wall and when we get in there we see the mixer men and Leigh-Anne dash over to it and start practicing straight away. Me, Jesy and Jade on the other hand spread out on the floor and watch, deciding we weren't in the mood. "Right, you three get your asses off the floor or I'll get a ruler look the old school teachers". All three of us look at eachother and laugh. Claud is about to continue talking but are interrupted by Jades phone ringing. "Omg, it's Jed, can I answer it!?", she exclaims, her eyes glowing. Jesy and Claud share a glance and shrug and Jade instantly answers the call, running to the back of the room, in to a chair in the corner. I feel sadness flare up inside me but I hide it by leaping up and join Lee who's dancing the chorus to sotme. The whole time tho, I can see Jade out of the corner of my eye, and I can hear her burst out laughing. I wish I could make her feel that way. At one point I see Jade catch my glance in the mirror and she frowns, and a minute later she's off of facetime and walking over to me. I continue to dance as if nothing happened. "Pez, can I talk to you a minute?", she says quietly from behind me. I look around and notice no one heard. I see something in her brown eyes i've never seen before, and I follow her outside, worry erupting inside me.

AN- HEY GUYS FIRST AN WEW

Okay so I know y'all want to kill me for all this cliffhangers but I got to keep you all entertained somehow huh ;)

I have so much good shit planned for this fanfic you're not even ready.

Please don't kill me after that being a dream I mean I had to HAHAHHA. okay sorry ill leave, byeee