crush ✧ j.t

Chapter 16

Perries POV

I wake up to piercing light flooding in from the window of a hotel room and groan, burrowing my head in to the pillow, my head banging. I try to fall asleep again but my brain feels like it's about to explode. I reach out to the glass of water that was left next to my bed, and sit up, taking a huge glut. I look at my phone and see it's full of texts. First I look at the time; 11:39. I groan and see various texts from Jesy.

Where have you gone?

Pez?

Who were you singing too?

It's then that all the memories of last night flood back. Me singing, me confessing my love to Jade, her bringing me back to my room and taking my makeup off and her words. "Look, lets go back to the hotel and we'll talk about this in the morning."

I feel my body erupt with nerves even thinking about it. I've made such a fool of myself, and I'm not ready for the words i'm going to hear. I wish I could just erase everything from the past 48 hours. I continue looking through my texts which are just some drunk ones from Claud and some of the other dancers, until I reach my most recent text from Jade.

Morning Pez. Text me when you're awake, we need to talk <3

I feel like throwing up, but still I text her, as I can't just let this roll on.

I'm awake. Come whenever you want x

I look through the drunk texts from Claud and can't help but giggle at how drunk he was, and hear a knock at the door. I leap up but instantly regret it as the room starts to spin. I stumbled towards the door and the second Jade sees me she places an arm around my back and helps me back to the bed. She sits me down and sits next to me, her caramel hair glistening in the sunlight.
"Perrie, about last night... Do you remember what you said", she says gently, not breaking eye contact with me. "Yes. I meant every word"

I see her eyes shift on to the floor, and the room is filled with a deadly silence. "Even that you've loved me 5 years?"
I don't answer and when she looks at me I nod slightly. She notices and I see her chocolate eyes twinkle. "I have too", she says shyly, looking away from me. "What about Jed?"

I see her look at me and place a finger on my lip. "Not important right now", she whispers, before placing her soft lips on mine. They mold together perfectly, and it sends electricity through my body that i've never felt before. I feel all the weight from the past 5 years escape, all the tension escape. I wrap my arms around her neck, gently running my hands through her hair, and I feel her hands on my waist. I feel Jade pull away slightly, and I feel her lips graze against mine with her words. "I love you baba", before pulling away completly, looking at me lovingly. "Well Perrie, I guess, after 5 years, will you be my girlfriend?", she says, grabbing both my hands and interlocking our fingers. "Of course."

It's impossible to explain how one feels in this situation. It is the most unique feeling you will ever feel. The feeling of being loved by somebody you can't live without, and knowing you mean enough to them to become part of their everyday life.

I place one hand on her cheek, and I watch the golden skin of her cheek blush. Finally, I can love her and treat her the way she is meant to be loved and treated.