crush ✧ j.t

Chapter 6

Perries POV

I wake up to someone tickling my feet. I squeal and kick frantically. "Fuck Pez you almost kicked me", I heard her voice say. I feel my brain instantly start up the second I hear her voice . I open my eyes quickly and look at her, with a serious expression, which soon turned in to a giggle. "I can't believe you didn't wake up when I kissed you", mumbled Alex from beside me on the bed. I look at him pouting and I grab his face and place my lips on his, almost right infront of Jade. "See Alex, I told you she loved you".

I feel another bit of my heart break off. This was probably one of the most painful seconds in my 2 years of loving Jade; her thinking that I loved someone who wasn't her. But yet I continue to kiss him. Maybe to try and get rid of the pain. He is the one to pull away. "You need to get ready and go on the tour-bus babe", he says, running his hand through my hair. I hear footsteps as Jade exits the room. I see Alex bite his lip and pin me down on the bed. I squeal as he places his lips on my neck, starting to nibble on the sensitive skin. I groan and tilt my head back. He then starts bitting above my collarbone. Something was just unsettling about it. Probably the fact that all I wanted was Jade to be doing this, not Alex. I push him off and try to smile at him. "Babe, I have a show later I can't turn up with-" I get cut off by a wolf whistle. Me and Alex both turn to see Jed standing at the door frame. "Hate to break it to you love birds, but we leave in 10. I push Alex gently and leap up, grabbing some joggers and a tshirt and dashing in to the bathroom and changing. I then brush my teeth and use the toilet and step out to see all 3 of them sitting on the bed, waiting. "Wow you did do good didn't you Alex", says Jade, standing to look at my neck. I cover her eyes and force her to turn, grabbing her by the shoulders; "Jadey!". She laughs and turns to look at me. "Don't worry, nothing wrong with people knowing about your man", she says teasingly, and for the second time today my heart chips. To make it worse, she then walks over to Jade and his arms snake down her hips and he plants a kiss on her lips. "Oh I just need to get my charger", I say half heartedly, before tearing my gaze away from Jades back and walking in to my room, pulling my charger out the wall before dragging my case towards the door.

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The Dangerous Woman Tour has now been going for about a month, and it's been the most painful month of my life. Jade is always messing around with me on stage, but the second we finish he flies in to Jed's arms and doesn't acknowledge me until the next show. 

My parents always warned me love was a cruel thing. I just smiled and nodded, promising not to get hurt, but watching the only one you love basically be pulled away like a wave is something I never wish on anyone.

"Jesy, I-I'm leaving the band"
"Good joke Pez, where's the camera?", i watch her spin and laugh.
"Look Jesy, I just can't deal with this".

I see her frown as a sob escapes my mouth.

"But why?"
"I can't watch Jade be in love with someone else, everyday it's like I loose a part of me".

I see tears appear in her own eyes; "Please, Perrie, think of the fans, think of the bands career we can't make it without you."

"Jesy, do you want the best for me?"
"Of course I do Pez, but this isn't the besg thing for you. We can fix this".

My voice starts to raise

"Look Jesy my mind is fucking made, I can't stand around and watch fucking Jade escape my grasp. This is the only way I can do this", and before she can get a word in I storm out the door. "Perrie, where are you going", I hear Leigh-Anne say infront me. I close my eyes and as she stops infront of me and mumble; "I'm so sorry Lee Lee" before pushing her gently and running out the building.