Clueless

Sixteen

Corey's POV:
I went home feeling shittier than before. Not from my hang over just cause... of what I've been feeling. I was going to call Connie but I didn't feel like it. I hadn't heard from her all morning so I didn't bother calling.

"Hi honey how are you?" My mom said as I walked in. "Hi have you dealt with dad yet?" I said ignoring her question. "I'm great too thanks." She said sarcastically. "Sorry... I'm fine how are you?" I sighed. "Better now thank you."
"So did you deal with dad?" I said changing the subject back. "It's getting there." She sighed. That was another thing I had to worry about; was this whole issue with my parents. "Where were you last night?" She said leaning on the counter. "Oh... I stayed over at Alessia's." I said laying down on the couch. "Oh you did?"
"Yup." I said hoping she wasn't going to ask anymore questions. I felt so shit for a thousand reasons. Every time mom mentioned her name or I thought of her butterflies came to my stomach but then I also would get a pounding head ache. "Oh where did you sleep?" Fuck. Thanks for asking mom. "Uh... in her bed." I said nonchalantly. "And where did she sleep?"
"In her bed."
"So you slept together?" She said. "Yeah mom can we just drop it, it's really no big deal." I said trying to shrug it off. "I was really tired from the party and needed a place to crash and I didn't want to wake you up it was late."
"Hmm.... interesting." She said. "What?"
"Nothing. That's nice." I didn't know what she was getting at. "Corey are you okay, you don't look too well."
My mom knows I drink but she doesn't know that I get drunk. She thinks I'm a responsible drinker. "Yeah, I don't know."
"What's wrong? Something seems off with you."
"Alessia's has a thing with Jack." I said sickly. "Oh no he's trouble. You better look out for her."
"Oh trust me I am." I said putting my hands under my head as a pillow.

It was true. I swear god that if he tried to hurt I'd pound him and kick his ass. But I don't know what the hell was wrong with me it wasn't just that bothering me. Maybe jealousy? But why? I don't know why I was feeling like this I've never felt this way before.

I went and locked myself in my room for a good couple hours until my mom came in. "You're alive?" She laughed. I groaned and pulled a blanket over my head. "Why don't you get up and do something you'll feel better." She suggested. I honesty didn't want to do anything. I was in a hoodie and track pants. "Not today mom."
"Then why don't you at least call one of your friends? Do something." Hey, that wasn't a bad idea. "Sure why not." I sighed leaning over to the phone. I waited for her to leave my room to call someone. I figured I call Johnny. He's the best guy to rant about problems. I always found he listened the most. I called Johnny and he put me on speaker since Billy was with him.

"How you feeling?" Johnny mocked  making Billy laugh. "Oh screw," I defended. "I feel like shit."
"Hangover's a bitch."
"Yeah but it's not just that man... look I gotta talk to guys about something serious and you can't say anything."
"Sure what is it?" Johnny said sounding unamused. "Okay first I need to rant about Jack." That seemed to get Johnny and Billy a bit more tuned in. "Alessia's going out with him and she doesn't realize that he's an asshole who probably just wants to..."
"Fuck her?" Billy said. "Yeah and I swear if touches her I'll fucking kill him."
"I know man but you can't just go and do that if she's into him." Billy said. Hearing that from him made me feel like shit. I couldn't imagine them actually dating and they were close to it. "Who cares about them anyway? You have Connie." What Johnny said made me stop and realize something I hadn't really thought about before. "Corey... hello?"
"Oh my god... oh shit... oh fucking shit." I said. That's when it hit me that I had feelings for Alessia. "Corey what the hell's wrong with you?" They said concerned. I continued cussing to myself when they kept yelling at me to tell them what the hell my problem was. "Guys I fucked up. I fucked up real bad."
"What do you mean?!" I didn't even know how to explain myself. "I think I like Alessia."
"Well no shit you're best friends."
"No I mean the like like. I have feelings for her."
"You what?!" They said at the same time. "That's how I fucked up because I think I've had for a while now and just didn't realize until... I don't know yesterday." They couldn't believe what I was saying. "But what about Connie?!"
"I don't care about her anymore. I'm not positive but I think Alessia likes me too and that's why I fucked up cause it didn't hit me ti'll now." I have never felt so stupid in my life. "She does like you!" Johnny said. "Well I think so but I don't know for sure." I said. "No it's true she does!" I over heard her talking about it to Emily and Kristen a few days ago!"
"Fuck Johnny and you didn't tell me?!"
"I don't know, I only heard this like two days ago and you're with Connie, I didn't want to cause anything!" Holy shit. "We have a thing but I'm not with her! How long has Alessia liked me?!"
"Apparently since the first day of school!"

What the fuck... it made so much sense. It was all coming to me. The way she acted around me and the little things I was picking up on now. Never in my life have I felt so blind and like a stupid jerk. My god, this entire time I was gloating about and running after Connie right in front of her when she liked me and had no idea.
I can't imagine how shitty I must have made her feel. "Guys she's never going to forgive me. I fucked things up really badly."
"When did you start feeling different about her?"
"This one night I wasn't having a good night cause she was upset with me cause I ditched her for Connie and I was dealing with my parents shit and I just needed to get out of the house. I called her up and convinced her to come on a drive with me to the lot and we went there for a while and just talked and had a great time. I don't know I felt something for her. We talk about things that I could never talk about with Connie."
"So you're done with Connie?"
"Yeah. I liked Alessia ever since that night and I didn't realize it. I just felt even worse about it when she told me Jack hit her up."
"Then go for her man quit pissin' and moanin' and do something about it!" Johnny said. "I can't! It's too late! She probably doesn't even like me anymore because I've made her feel like shit for months cause I'm a blind asshole!"
"Corey you didn't know she liked you!"
"Well I felt like she did but I wasn't sure so I didn't want to mention it and I didn't even realize!"
"Exactly you didn't know for sure! So you can sit on your ass feeling sorry for yourself or you can use one more chance and stop her from getting with that pile of shit."
"Fuck, hopefully this goes well. Thanks guys I'll talk to you after."

I hung up the phone and bolted down stairs and Connie finally decided to call me but I didn't answer. "Corey where are you going?!" My mom said surprised to see me moving. "Going to try and fix something that I screwed up I'll explain later." I said bolting out. I hoped in my car with out even opening the door and took off to Jack's house.