Pretty Hurts. •Jaegan•

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Ryan's hickey tho.

Justin's pov.

"Hey Justin." Jack said as I sat down at the lunch table outside.

"Hey Jack." I greeted him.

"Bitch where's my hello?" Kale said with his hand over his chest like he was actually hurt.

"Sorry, Hi your highness the greatest one of them all." I said and bowed my head to him.

"That's better you peasant." He said and waved his hands. I looked at him and he looked at me, I looked down sad.

"Awh baby, I'm sorry." Kale got up and came and hugged me. I pretended to cry.

"Oh?" We heard, we pulled apart, I wiped my fake tears away, I saw Raegan with a confused look on his face.

"Kale-bear!!!!!!!" We heard Ryan yell. We turned to see Ryan running to Kale, Kale's eyes opened as Ryan collided with him, sending them both tumbling to the ground. They stood up and we all laugh. I noticed a big hickey on Ryan's neck, I nudged Raegan and he looked and laughed quietly.

"Oooooooo Kyan's already getting freaky deeky." Raegan laughed more louder, as he gestured to the big purple bruise plastered on Ryan's neck. Ryan noticed and looked down blushing, clearly embarrassed, but Kale? Oh he just smirked as if saying 'Yup bitches, he's mine'. He was clearly proud of what he did.

"Oh come here baby boy." Kale hugged Ryan from behind, resting his head on Ryan's shoulder.

"Babe, I said no marks." Ryan said trying to be mad. Key word. Trying.

"Sorry babe, gotta show the world what's mine." Kale giggled as he kissed all over Ryan's face, making Ryan giggle and blush.

"They're so cute." I whispered to Raegan. He nodded, and grabbed me as he sat down. I leaned into him and just melted into his frame. He was my safe place. He made me feel accepted, wanted, needed, cared for, loved, confident. I love him so much, but I'm scared to tell him. I always seem to get lost in his eyes, they're like oceans and I just fall too deep into them. His personality is my favourite. He's so funny, and kind, he's literally a big teddy bear. But he's walls are built up high, but I think I knocked them all down. He's nice to lots of people, except the people that don't deserve his kindness.

Like if he sees a kid being picked on he'll help them out. Or if someone drops there books in the hall, he'll help them pick them back up. But to those people who are assholes, he walks by, he knows his stuff.

"Justin! Justin! Justin! Come on, we got class!" I snapped out of this dream land I've created. I looked around trying to gain my senses back. I saw Raegan, I guess he was the one who was calling my name.

"Oh, okay." I said, still dazed.

"Jeez Jay, you gotta stop doing this, I worry about you man!" Raegan laughed as he lead me to our next class.

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I still couldn't think straight, but hey after all I'm gay, soooooo? Hahah I laughed out loud, wow I'm still weird. I mentally high five myself, for me being so funny. It was after school and a Thursday and I had nothing to do. Jack, Trent, Kale and Ryan were having a fancy double date at McDonald's. Raegan said he had something to do so I was lonely this evening.

I was on a path that I normally took home, it was a longer way, but it had a amazing view on a creek and I always stopped to take photos. I like to be artsy and cute. But I heard some guys conversation and it sounded bad so I hid behind a near by tree. The trunk was thick so I was hidden easily. The conversation was horrible something about them using about someone for a bet or revenge, I feel bad.

"Are you sure he's fallen hard Raegan?" Raegan? He's not talking about my Raegan, is he?

"Oh yeah so hard, I've got him wrapped him around my finger guys." Who?

"Yeah Justin Blake, will crumble hard. If he's brother won't pay for what he did then he will, I mean Danny's not even here most of the time, ha I bet his mother don't even love him, tomorrow everyone's going to leave him right, Rae?" What?

"Yup, everyone who he thinks, cares and loves him, gone." Raegan said but there was a hint of sadness and sorrow in his tone.

"Great!"

I sat down and watched them as the walk away, Raegan and some guy. I sighed, I shouldn't have let him in, I knew it, the good guy doesn't always win and get the guy, does he? I sighed again. Once they were out of sight I got up and walked home, not even bothering to take any pictures, my mood was destroyed. I guess we'll find out tomorrow if what they were saying was actually true. But for now I'll just go home and eat, sleep, cry, and hurt.

I opened the front door, went to the kitchen grabbed some cookies, cereal, and basically anything sweet. I went up in my room and put on one of my favourite sad movie, If I Stay. It's so sad. I love it, always there when I need to cry but I can't. I played it and just sat there and cried. I ate all the cookies, half the cereal, and everything else. I cried so much. The movie was over but I was still crying.

I sat there wondering. Was I just a bet or revenge to Raegan this whole time? Was all he said a lie? Are they all going to leave me? Like everyone else? I mean sure Jacob, left me, but not just me right? And Danny's gone a lot, but he's happy and he would never leave me, right? My dads always busy, so I basically moved in with my mom, but he wouldn't leave me, right? My moms always working now, is she going to leave me? Does everyone I care and love about leave me? Will Kale leave me? Jack? Trent? Ryan? Probably...

And that's how I fell asleep that night, I just wore myself out, I cried so much, my body psychically couldn't take it anymore. I can't take it anymore.

(A/n: Had to throw a sad part in there, I love sad, sads good. Welp, hope you enjoyed since like everyone demanded another chapter, here you go, sorry if you don't like it, it was sorta rushed but sorta not, oh well. Bye.)