Pretty Hurts. •Jaegan•

•eighteen•

(Can y'all not say update, after I've just updated, because my updates are normally really long, 1000+ words, which is about 4-6 pages. It takes about a hour to write, plus I have to think about what to write, so don't tell me to update, if I just updated. Thanks.)

Justin's pov.

I wanted so badly to wake up. To see Raegan's beautiful face. To touch his face lovingly. To hold his hand as we walk around laughing. I want to cuddle him, and fall asleep with him. I want to wake up.

God I'm really stupid aren't I? If I hadn't cut that morning. I would be fine. I would be doing all those things with the most beautiful person in the world. But no, here I am, laying in a hospital bed, unconscious, in a coma. My mind was dark, it was a scary place. I've been wondering around it for a while.

I can hear everything going on around me. I know I made Raegan, Damon, Jack, Kale, Danny, my father sad. This is all my fault. I know my dads not here, because his boss won't let him leave. But he's supposed to be coming soon. Or so Danny says. I know Kale and Ryan are good, they're still love sick.

Raegan's hurting and I want nothing more, to comfort him. To love him. To kiss him. But I can't. I felt someone grab my hand. Raegan. Just by the way he touches me like I'm the most fragile thing in the world. Like he'd break me at any second. I know it's him.

"Hey Justin, we're still studying for our finals, it's Friday. The weather is getting warmer, the suns out. I miss you. I got a hair cut. I can't wait till you wake up. It's been three days, and I miss your voice. Your smile and laugh. Your personality, and your humour. I miss everything about you. I miss you. Please wake up soon, please. I love you, and it's killing me being here without you." Raegan told me.

Wake up Justin, Wake up! Come on! Just open your eyes! You can do it! Come on!

I started seeing light, and I began to fade out of my mind. I felt my eyes fluttering open. The bright rays of sun, peeking in through the window hurt my eyes. I closed them again. Before opening and turning my head towards Raegan. He was still holding my hand, and silently crying.

"R-Rae?" My coarse voice spoke, catching Raegan's attention. His head snapped up, his eyes lit with thankfulness.

"Oh my god! Justin! You're awake! I missed you so much!" He said and leaned in and kissed me passionately. Oh how bad I missed this. I missed it so much. To feel his lips fit perfectly with mine. To feel his touch. Ugh I missed it. I didn't realize I was crying before Raegan pulled away.

"Justin, you're crying." Raegan pointed out.

"Oh I am?" I said moving my hand to touch my face. And sure enough, I was crying.

"Why?" He asked.

"I just missed you a lot, it was so lonely, just sitting in my mind, not being able to love you back. To feel your pain. I just miss you. So much." I cried, latching my self onto him, wrapping my arms around him.

"I missed you too." He said and held me. I missed his arms, I missed feeling so safe with him.

"Oh, am I interrupting something?" A lady asked, as she walked in.

"Oh, um, no." Raegan blushed as he pulled away. I wiped my tears, as I look at the lady.

"Hi, I'm nurse Clare, and I just have to check some things." Clare introduced herself, as she walked over, with a clipboard, and started checking all the medical things.

"Okay, you're all stable, good and healthy. And well I'll leave you two alone, bye!" She smiled and left. I sighed, I looked at Raegan, who was on his phone. I coughed gaining his attention.

"Oh, I'm sorry Justin, I was texting Jack and Kale." Raegan apologized.

"Oh, are they coming?" I asked.

"They're already here." He told me, and as if on cue, they both walk in the door.

"What's up bitches!" Kale says as he makes his way over.

"Kale, I've told you, many times, no swearing, we're in a hospital." Scolded Jack, like Kale was his bad, misbehaving child.

"Sorry, Dad." Kale rolled his eyes and Jack sighed.

"You too, are like a really cute couple." I pointed out. The both turned their heads to me, they're eyes widen, like a deer caught in the headlights, of it's death.

"No, no, no. Me and Jack, nope, never gonna happen. He's just my best friend. Basically my brother!" Kale said, deny that thought, shivering with disgust. Not because he didn't think Jack was amazing but because they're like siblings, you don't date, your siblings.

"Ouch, Jack just got brother zoned." Raegan laughed. Jack rolled his eyes, and stuck up the finger, which only made Raegan laugh harder.

"So Jack, what happened with you and Trent?" I asked, after Raegan had calmed down.

"Oh, um, we broke up..." Jack trailed off.

"What? Why?" I questioned him, confused.

"He was only in Maryland, for a bit, and he had to go home to Kentucky, and we both agreed, we didn't want to do the whole long distance thing. So yeah, we broke up. Yeah I'm sad about it, but I'm okay." Jack explained, with a fake smile.

"Oh Jack, baby, come here." I opened my arms, gesturing for him to hug me. He came and collapsed in my arms, crying softly.

"I know it hurts Jack, I know, but you still got me, Kale, Raegan, Ryan, our own little family, just for us." I comforted him, rubbing his back.

"Thanks Justin, you always know what to do to make me feel better." He pulled away, now just sitting on the edge of my hospital bed.

"It's my honour! Really, I love making people happy." I told him.

"Hey, you should do social media, I mean, after high school, became a YouTuber, a public figure, in the lgbtq+ community. You could help people!" Kale recommended.

"Yeah, you totally should!" Jack and Raegan agreed. I nodded and thought about it. Maybe I should. After that we talked and laughed for a bit. Then there was a knock at the door.

"Mr.Blake, your fathers here."

(A/n: Happier chapter? I'm sorry for making y'all cry, in the last like two? Whoop whoop David Blake is here now, Yay!!!!!!)