poetry by a girl who's afraid of herself //

Nothing at all

All I feel is pain.
But at least I feel something.
Most people don't feel anything at all.
I wish I was one of those people.
I wish I didn't feel anything.
At all.

All I feel is hurt.
The way the emotion courses through my body so familiar.
And I just lay here still as a rock,
Feeling both of these emotions all at once.

But then I learned how to do it.
I've learned to be one of those people who don't feel anything at all. 
Like a switch I can turn my emotions on and off just like that. And well, as this poem ends..
That switch is off.
And I feel nothing.
Nothing at all.