poetry by a girl who's afraid of herself //

Going Nowhere

i can't look at my reflection for too long in car windows. why? because i see these big brown eyes and they're so full of hurt and sadness and i want nothing more than to see them bright with happiness and love. but i can't see it. i see exactly what's staring back. i see a girl who doesn't know the reflection staring back at her. who's so confused on who she is and who she's going to be. i see a girl who has used pain to feel something because she was tired of feeling nothing at all. i see a girl who is trying to piece herself back together but every time she picks one up, she drops one right behind her.