poetry by a girl who's afraid of herself //

She Wants

A girl stands in the mirror wondering what others can see and she can't.
She wonders for hours, thinking what they see is just someone she wants to be.
She doesn't want them to see the girl who breaks down and cries, but rather the girl who's nice and doesn't lie.

She doesn't want them to see that she destroys herself, she wants them to see that she's a great help. She wants to scream out for help, but she knows that her screams aren't loud enough like she hopes.

She wants people to like what they see, even though what she sees.. She disagrees.
She wants someone to understand but knows no one can. She wants to be loved, but deep down she knows that it's not enough.

She wants to feel wanted, even though she believes everyone wants her slaughtered.
She wants to love herself, but then she realized that SHE'S maybe just not enough.