poetry by a girl who's afraid of herself //

Dark Lonely Star

He said to her,
"That's our star"
But was it really?

It was the brightest star they both have ever seen.
It was supposed to resemble their love..
But now it's just that lonely star no one notices.
And now? That star resembles her life after he left hers.

She sits on her bed in the middle of the night,
Looking at that bright, lonely star.
She has a flashback of how he first kissed her in front of that star by her window.
And now she remembered that love doesn't ever go too far.

Her fingers trace the scars all over her body,
The ones she caused herself.
She remembers the words he told her when he was done. He said to her that her problems were too much, that she never loved him and she wasn't good enough for him.

When she's done remembering, she whispers to herself, "he never understood the demons in my head, and he never understood how much I loved him"

I loved him the way a mother loves her newborn child.
I loved him the way rain pours down, slow at first then altogether.
But he'll never understand that he was her world and now it's perished.

So as she sees the star start to dim and fade away, she says to herself, "these demons I have in my head will never go away, and my love for him is eternal".

And now the star is gone..
And so is she, and there's nothing left but the cold hearted truth named reality, and the dark lonely star, which will never be seen.