poetry by a girl who's afraid of herself //

suicide prevention.

i wanna start off with that clearly i personally know how each and everyone of you feel. everyone who goes through the rough patches and has attempted to end their journey. i've been there. and i want you all to read this and know that you're not alone. no matter how cliché that sounds.

i want people to know that it's okay to not be okay. that crying at night is okay.  i know that people have the constant feeling like there's no point in living anymore. that they question what their purpose is. why there's air in their lungs. why they feel like a disappointment; a failure.
i can't pin point it to you why i, or many other people feel that way. but i can whole heartedly express that suicide isn't the answer. it's a permanent solution to temporary problems. we all have a storm. but what happens when storms are over? the clouds and rain go away and out comes the sun shining us with light that we once saw dark. i'm telling you or anyone who reads this that you're important. you're worth it. the air in your lungs the beat of your heart the way your brain thinks the way your bones are formed in your body the way your organs all have different jobs the way you see or walk; all of that is fucking important. all of that is what we're made of. i'm here telling you this now that you can think that no one cares you can think that no one loves you, you can think that when you die no one will be impacted. but thinking is just that; a thought. it's not the truth. the truth is this; you may feel alone. you may think terrible things about yourself or have other people say terrible things about you, but you have someone. at least one person who loves and cares for you. who appreciates the jokes you make or how you laugh or what color your eyes are or how you're doing. someone cares. whether it's me or someone else. someone. cares.
you're never alone even when you feel like it's you against the demons in your head. when you feel at war with your emotions. you aren't the only one who goes through it. have someone that'll listen. have someone who will pick you up when you have no more strength to rise. because i'm telling you this. your life is of importance. and you'd have the greatest impact on people regardless of how small you think you are. how little you think you matter.
i care. someone else does too. and i'm always going to be here and i'm sure you have someone who is too. i will help you build what others have destroyed. even if it was yourself.