Almost Feels Like Always (COMPLETED)

HUDSON (TWENTY FOUR)

I SMACKED the table and hissed a curse.

"Pare, hayaan mo na muna. Galit pa 'yun."

Lalo akong naasar sa sinabi ni Flynn. It didn't help. Fuck! I know. I know she's still mad. She won't talk to me. She's not replying to my texts. She's not answering my calls. She didn't even go to her classes. What? She's avoiding me?! 

I pinched the bridge of my nose. I feel like exploding. Pinuntahan ko si Parvati but the bitch just cried. Tang ina. I don't need her tears. Kung hindi dahil sa kanya walang Trinity sa eksena. She wanted to get back at Autumn and she used Trinity. Kung hindi lang sila babae ng pinsan niya, pag-uuntugin ko silang dalawa!

"Just give her space, man."

I glared at Blake. "Space for what?! Para may makasingit na iba?!"

Fuck.

It's been four days since I last saw her. Hindi na ako mapakali. I missed her so much. Hindi na ako makatagal na galit siya sa 'kin at hindi kami nag-uusap. Tapos tang ina nalaman ko pa sa mga classmates niya na kasama daw niya 'yung Denver na naman! The same asshole I punched for being too close to her in a group picture!

Gusto ko na naman manapak!

"Nagpapalamig lang ng ulo 'yung tao, pare. Intindihin mo. Kahit ikaw naman siguro ganon din ang gagawin mo kung makita mong may kahalikang—"

Sinipat ko ng nakamamatay na tingin si Blake. He shut his mouth before rolling his eyes. Fuck. That's not gonna happen. Maisip ko pa lang na may kahalikan si Autumn—fuck!

Naninikip ang dibdib ko. Hindi ako makahinga. Hindi ako makakahinga hangga't hindi ko nakikita si Autumn. I need to see her. I have to find her. Tumayo ako.

"Where are you going?" Tanong ni Dane.

"Pupuntahan ko siya."

He shook his head in distaste of the idea.  "Dude, you're just pushing her away even more. Sinabi naman niya sa'yong kailangan niya ng time and space to clear her mind. Leave her alone muna."

"Leave her alone and what?!" Hinilamos ko ang kamay ko. "Magkasama sila ng gagong Denver na 'yun ngayon! I can't just sit here and do nothing while my girlfriend is with another guy!"

Tang ina.

"Eh sinabi naman nila Winona na partner 'yung dalawa sa experiment project nila. Calm down."

I heaved a sigh.

I felt so helpless. Hindi ko alam kung saan siya hahanapin. Wala siya sa mga usual spots na tinatambayan niya. Kahit ang mga kaibigan niya ay hindi ko makita. I've talked to them the same day Autumn found out about the picture and they were mad at me but when I explained my side, naintindihan naman nila. Still, they won't help me talk to their friend. 'Yun daw ang gusto ni Autumn.

Fuck!

Sa huli, wala rin akong nagawa kundi mag-hintay na lang na lumipas ang buong araw na wala siya. When the clock ticked 8 P. M., I went to their house. Iyon kasi ang usual na uwi niya galing sa school. Unless we have plans. Hindi ako nag-doorbell dahil hindi naman ako kakausapin ni Autumn. Magtataka lang ang parents niya.

I parked in front of their gate. Tiningala ko ang bintana ng kwarto niya. The light's dead. What? She's still not home? I clenched my jaw as I dialed her number on my phone. It kept ringing and ringing. Sa bawat ring na hindi siya sumasagot ay lalo akong nag-alala. Lalo akong nagagalit. Bakit wala pa siya? Tang ina, anong oras na!

Sumandal ako kay Tootsie habang walang tigil sa pag-dial ng number niya. Shit! I went to my messaging app and composed a text.

[Me:]
Where are u? Is it hard to answer my call? I'm worried sick. Please.