Almost Feels Like Always (COMPLETED)

THIRTY

Where Does Almost End?

Did it end in us?

It ended us.

WINONA let out a frustrated sigh and handed another box of Kleenex to Mallory. I lazily watched her as I chewed on my potato chips. I shifted my gaze back to the wide television screen where Grey's Anatomy was playing.

"He's so fucking heartless! Didn't I love him enough?" Mallory whined while blowing her nose on the poor tissue paper.

Winona rolled her eyes. "Jesus, Mal! You've been crying for two goddamn hours! Hindi ka pa ba natutuyuan ng luha?"

Mallory sniffed. She looked like a mess. She's all over the place. "I just don't understand why it have to end this way! I did everything! I gave my all! And he still left?!"

My heart broke for her. I know exactly how she feels. I shoved another chips in my mouth. Winona stood up to get Mallory a drink. Sa dami ng iniyak niya, I think hindi sapat ang isang baso lang. She needed a drum.

"What's wrong with me?" She whined again after finishing the glass of water. "Am I that bad?"

"Just take a goddamn bus to Sagada." Umiikot ang mga matang sabi ni Winona.

"You don't understand kasi, eh! Hindi mo alam kung gaano kasakit!"

"Si Autumn nga hindi sinipot sa araw ng kasal niya pero hanggang ngayon buhay pa siya!" Winona huffed in annoyance. "Tapos ikaw kung makangawa ka diyan parang end of the world na? Ilang months lang ba kayo ng Julius na 'yun? 2? 3? My God! Madali lang palitan ang lalaki, Mal. Pero ikaw hindi ka mapapalitan."

Mallory looked at me with pity in her eyes. Siya 'tong brokenhearted at nagawa niya pa akong kaawaan ngayon? Napailing na lang ako.

"Do you want to go on a Tinder date?" I asked her. "I've been talking to this guy for a month now. He seemed nice. He wants to go out with me but I'm scared to go alone. Sabi niya pwede akong magsama tapos isasama niya rin friend niya. Game ka?"

Suminghot siya bago ako titigan muli ng mataman. "Tanungin mo kung chinito 'yung friend niya."

Sabay pa kaming natawa ni Winona. He's really into chinito guys. Julius was chinito, too and he left her. Her other exes were chinito and they all left her. She needs to think about it thoroughly. Baka may sumpa siya sa mga chinito.

Thankfully, she stopped whining. Ganon naman si Mal. Iiyakan niya ang isang bagay at pagkatapos ay tapos na. 'Yun na 'yon. I wish I can be like her. I wish I can end everything just like that. Pero bakit kahit three years na akong umiiyak ay ni hindi pa rin nabawasan ang sakit? The cut was still fresh. It was still aching and it hadn't stop since the first time.

"Yayain mo nga 'yung Tinder date mo sa Art Fair. Masarap mag-date sa mga ganon, eh." Maya-maya'y sabi ni mallory. She was switching on the TV channels.

Kinunutan ko siya ng noo. "Art Fair? Kailan ka pa nahilig sa art?"

"Artistic kasi lahat ng naging ex ko. Baka kailangan ko rin ma-incline sa art para seryosohin nila ako."

Naiiling na lang na tumawa ako. "Ilipat mo nga sa news. Wala na akong kamalay-malay sa nangyayari sa paligid ngayon."

"Paano ka naman magkakamalay, eh, hindi ka tumitigil katatrabaho? Wala ka na ngang social life, eh." Paismid na sagot ni Winona.

I just rolled my ayes at them. "I love what I do."

"Oh, bakit kami hindi?"

"Will you quit it?" Asik ko sa kanila saka inagaw ang remote.