Sweet Chocolate

Alaina

"Are you gonna go in?" Roxy asked looking at me

I stared at my house, my mom and dads car was in the driveway "I'm fucked" was all I could say my mom specifically told me to be home when she got there, but there was a car wreck not to far from Roxy's house so we had to take the long way

"do you want me to come in and explain to them what happened"

"no its fine, I put this on myself" I sighed "Ill see you later thanks again"

"no problem text me if you need me"

"bye Rosie" I said waving at her

"bye bye Alaina" she said waving from the back window

I watched the car as it backed out of my driveway, I wish I could just go back in time then I would be able to text everybody that I would be at a friends house; I wouldn't be in any trouble and Cam wouldn't be mad at me I thought to myself as I climbed the stairs before I could even twist the knob the door bust open

"Didn't I tell you to be here before I got here" my mom said she looked pissed

"there was a car wreck by Roxy's house and we had to take the long way" I said while walking into the living room to see my dad sitting on the couch

"take a seat" my mom said

I took a seat across from my dad while my mom sat next to him

"who the hell is Roxy" my mom said

"she is a girl I met today"

"so you just met her and you going to her house" I opened my mouth to speak but she put her hand up "don't say nothing just listen, what is wrong with you anything could have happened to you and no one but Roxy would have known; that girl could have killed you"

"but ma she's not like that she helped me"

"what happened at school" my dad spoke up for the first time since I walked in

"nothing" I mumbled while playing with my fingers, I didn't feel like talking about it, all day I been trying to forget that it even happened

"DON'T LIE TO ME ALAINA" my dad yelled making me jump a little "now imma ask again what happened at school"

I looked at them as they stared at me waiting for an answer "um these girls were messing with me so I left" that was basically the truth

"how many girls" my mom asked

"four"

"why didn't Sam and Rocky help you"

"its Roxy" I said trying my best not to roll my eyes at her

She waved her hand around "what ever her name is"

"she did try but it was no use"

"what about Sam why didn't you ask her" my mom said making mad

"she was one of the girls ma they poured flour and milk on me in front of the WHOLE freaking school" I said as I got up from my seat, I really didn't feel like talking

"sit down" my mom said while pointing to the chair i had gotten up from, I hesitated thinking about just bolting up the stairs to my room "SIT YO ASS DOWN" my mom yelled

I sat back down

"now why didn't you beat them girls asses, you should've windmilled them hoes"

I shook my head she just doesn't understand "I'm not the fighting type ma" I hate confrontations

She rolled her eyes and let out a breath "you don't have to be the fighting type to beat a bitch ass, especially if she pouring shit on you. You need to learn to stand up for yourself maybe the therapy session you got tomorrow will help you"

I didn't even respond, I just want to go to my room and just blast my music and forget all of this

"why didn't you at least text us so we know your alright, I was at the police station arguing with officers because i thought some thing happened to you and they wouldn't let me put an missing persons report out on you because it hadn't been 24 hours"

"I'M SORRY, okay it was hard to text or call anyone I was HURT the whole school laughed in my face and the last thing I wanted to hear was someone telling me how fighting will make all the pain and the years of verbal abuse just disappear; fighting won't bring my self esteem up, fighting wont make me feel beautiful, fighting solves nothing"

I got up out of the chair ignoring them when they told me to come back; I ran to my room and locked the door. I grabbed my apple headphones and plugged them into my phone, the first song to play was Rise Up by Andra Day; I turned my volume all the way up and just let the tears fall.