We Shall Heal

Tuesday March 4th.

I have some grand news for you. I just got expelled from school. That's right. Yap I did that. I beat up some poor rich kid to a pulp and I just got expelled from public school. I don't even know why I hit him. He just stumbled into my way and I was frustrated. There were too many people around me, I didn't know what to do. So I simply took it all out on him.

When I got home I had to wait three hours in my own suicidal thoughts before ma walked through the door. I didn't even look at her, and although I want to pretend she looked at me, I'm sure she didn't. And when I told her I was expelled, I told her calm and easy like I was telling her about something as casual as what size shoes I am.

These days it's become even worse. She won't even look at me anymore. She stopped eating at the table and I doubt if she eats at all anymore. When she comes home she goes straight to her room. She's no longer with me. I wish people asked about her cause then I'd tell them that my mother has died on me too.

I feel so numb right now I'm not even scared that that kid's parents will probably place charges against me.