The charges against me are dropped. Yipee. I'd rather die in an actual prison than in the one I'm living in right now. My therapist managed to prove that I am mentally unstable and sympathetically they let me go. They set me free. A free woman. I want to die.
What is mental stability? How is one unstable? Unstable is a grenade when the pin is popped. Cause any sudden motion and it explodes. To these people I'm probably just that. A grenade. Which is rather stupid considering I pretty much exploded a long time ago and these people are just collecting what remains in the aftermath. And gosh is it bloody.
I am clinically depressed and suicidal according to reports on me. But I'm just wondering how they can measure depression. Do they measure it on a scale or? Like on the scale of 1 to 10 this patient is a 10. How can you measure a feeling? What kind of abstract ways have doctors invented that can sum up how much of an abstract notion one has inside them? Can one measure one's soul? And the amount of life left in someone? When they say he has little life left in him because he is on his deathbed don't they realize he's probably filled with more joy than he has ever been filled in? What is life and what is death? Is my mother living or dying? Am I living or dying? Is breathing equivalent to living? Can a heart beat when it's frozen? Can a heart beat when it's dying? What is pain? Is it an emotion or a state? Is pain even real? Is pain pain? Am I making sense? Maybe I am crazy as the doctors say. Maybe I am unstable.
Maybe I am unstable. But a table can be stable or unstable depending on the evenness of the ground it's on. Stable compared to what or whom? Who is ever really mentally stable in this world? Who is ever completely sane? Cause the scale is from 1 to 10, who is ever a 0 on level of mental instability?
Am I really crazy and is my pain real?
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We Shall Heal
Short StorySadness doesn't suit a pretty face like yours. Tell me. What does? Happiness.
