C 18: Book 1

So I Love Her 🙄

Lucas POV

Sammy: so you love her." he said looking at me.

Me: yeah but her old nigga Craig got her on lock. She don't think I am safe."

Dillyn: she said that."

Me: nahh but..I know she thinks that I can't."I said blowing out my blunt.

Amber: maybe she's looking out for you. For her conscious wants you to be safe."

Me: I get that but..still."

I got up and went to the fridge pulling out a beer. I sat back down and drifted off. Getting Cyn was harder then I thought.

Drebo: you feeling her strong shouldn't stop you from letting her fake your break up." he said getting up.

Me: I know...but I am chilling for a while here, gotta get my head straight." he was right.

Drebo: aight man."

After that day I stayed at the old crib for a while. It had no intention of going back anytime soon.

Cyn POV

It had been 4 days since I had seen Lucas. He left late Monday night. I watched him drive off. But he was good though, on his insta live he had some girl named Amber with him. They looked good, he totally forgotten about me. But me..nah everyday since he left I stayed in my room crying. I barely left my room. I had given up the one good thing in my life besides my brothers.

There was commotion in his room. His voice echoed against the wall. I smiled and got up hoping to talk to him..until a female's voice froze me.

???: Lucas come on, you don't have to come back.

Lucas: chill Amber." I heard a kissing sound.

Amber: alright." I heard her walk out and finally he was alone... but I couldn't move. He was really with someone else. The tears came back and I slid down the wall. I blew the only chance at happiness and it killed to know it was my fault. I heard him gather a couple of things from his room before slamming the door.

Lucas POV

I arrived back at school. I had not gotten over Cyn. She was the reason I came back. Amber won't no one. She was my ex, but won't really anything, we just hung out..and I'll admit I was trying to make Cyn jealous. I knew she heard Amber trying to kiss me in the room.

Shundray: you and your girl been missing." he said dapping me up.

Me: what you mean."

Shundray: she ain't been to school for 4 four days." he said walking with me.

Me: so where is she."

Shundray: ask her brother." he shrugged.

He pointed at Santo in the cafeteria.

Me: aight." I walked in and said hey to everyone.

Santo: whats up." he dapping me up. He got up and gave me a big hug.

Me: wassup." I laughed.

Santo: glad you back man." he sat back down, moving his stuff so I could sit.

I looked around the table for her but she wasn't there.

Seven: she's at home." she glared at me. I nodded and looked down. The bell rung and everyone got up, even though I just got here.

Santo: alright y'all I am finna go bring my sister some food."

Me:...let me do it."

He looked at me funny.