BOOK 2 | Resume the War

Arc 7 | Ch. 106: You Will Have Your Queen

Resume the War

Chapter 106

The night looks calm and normal. Tila walang problema. It is as if nothing happened this morning. Nakatingin lang ngayon si Cj sa labas, standing still before the large window while crossing his arms.

There are a lot of thoughts going inside his mind dahilan para matulala siya roon ng ilang minuto. He has been standing there for almost half an hour. And yet not once he averted his gaze.

What happened this morning keeps flashing on his mind. He can still remember every detail of it.

He never thought there would be more chaos aside from the rebellion. He never thought chaos within their organization can happen. Chaos within the organization is possible but...

He never saw it coming. No one did.

Labis na pagkadismaya ang kaniyang nararamdaman. He understands that Cheska's trust is broken into pieces. He understands her disappointment. Her anger.

Because that is what he feels too.

This is angering him. How the Founders manipulated their minds, how his dad lied to her mom, how the elders have been lying and killed several Commoners, how Sean turned his backs on them...

But he is keeping that anger inside. He cannot lose his composure. Especially that Xeign got broken too.

But learning that his sister, the mistress of their organization also turned her backs on them...

It's like his inside got totally filled up and he cannot put more anger on it. It's spilling. He cannot take it anymore.

Naipikit niya ang mga mata at minasahe iyon. Hindi pa siya nakakapagpahinga simula kaninang umaga. Masyadong hindi maganda ang nangyayari kaya hindi niya magawang makapagpahinga.

And surely everyone is the same too.

"Why are you here?"

Xeyna stopped. Akala niya ay hindi siya neto mapapansin gayong kanina pa siya tulala. She gulped at naghanap ng isasagot. "I...I am just passing by."

"Until when are you going to lie?" he turned to her with his empty eyes. "Is that all you know?"

Hindi siya umimik. She would feel shameful kung sabihin niya man ang totoo. She is there because she is worried about him. Ilang beses na niyang pinigilan ang paa sa paglalakad ngunit dinala pa rin siya neto roon.

Cj scoffed at tinuon na lang ang pansin sa harapan. Hindi na niya pinansin si Xeyna at muling pinagmasdan ang headquarters sa labas.

So this place...Cheska passed it to him. She resigned as the mistress. He hates her for making him live to his nightmare. This isn't for him. He doesn't deserve to be the master.

What can he do for this organization? Until know he still hasn't thought of a plan. Ano ba ang silbi niya? He is no like Stein and Cheska.

How can he protect the organization when in the first place, he is not capable of what they can do?

At some point, there is a tiny bit of himself that wants to protect this organization. With everything they can. His mom loves this. She built this. She put this organization at the top. She made this the best.

Now that he is the one handling it, how could he make it fall? How could he let it exist unprotected? He is left with no choice but to fight despite...not being capable unlike those two.

But is it all worth it? Iyon ang gusto niyang malaman. Sure, his mother loves the organization. She is the one who built it but still...

How about the people inside it? The Lees? If this organization continues to move forward, will the casualties be worth it?