You Chose Mine

Final - Chapter 40

My eyes stayed glued to the living room ceiling. I find myself checking the time every 5 minutes from the lack of sleep. After last night I don't really expect myself to be sound asleep without a care in the world.

I've practically lost everyone who means something to me.

My imagination is the cruelest thing about all this. My own memories haunting me. Memories of aunt Isabella, memories of Kennedy, memories of Luke and the boys, I can't let anything go. It's like my mind refuses to shut off.

Ashton left hours ago. He was a good at distracting me from these things, but now I'm alone and everything's hitting me like a freight train and it hurts just as much. He opened the bag Kennedy left here, I think she was expecting me to forgive her and stay for a while. She had bought me my favourite movie on DVD, The Lion King. As soon as I saw it I laughed, we had so many little tiffs over me being too lazy to buy it, too lazy to even download it. She always said that she would buy it for me. I just didn't think she would buy it as an apology present. We ended up watching it, and I'm going to say honestly it made me cry. Not because of anything that happened in it, because of everything that has happened. Losing auntie, losing Kennedy, and losing Luke earlier. I wish I had that baboon to hit me over the head with a stick, with any luck I'll forget everything that's happened.

I shook my head as I rubbed my eyes, 'Did I really just wish for a baboon to hit me over the head with a stick?' I questioned myself.

I turned over onto my stomach and picked up my phone from the floor, '4:30' lit up my screen. I'll be on my way in a couple hours. My hand fell to the ground when I noticed the old pizza stain. A smile spread across my face at the memory.

Michael was being stupid with a piece of pizza trying to balance it on his nose when it just slid off and toppings first onto the carpet. We got most of it out, but there's still a few noticeable specks that I've learned to live with. But there's one memory in this lounge room that I hold onto tightly, a recent one, one that makes my heart get heavy and my chest hurt.

"And put your fingers here" Luke said guiding me. His fingers folded over mine perfectly as he tucked the guitar under my arm, with his comforting one placed carefully over it. "This is like every bad romance book that has a musician in it" his chest vibrated on my back as he laughed, leaning into my neck "We are like every bad romance book" he retorted. His soft lips pressed to the side of my neck as he lent in further providing me with more comfort. I giggled at the ticklish feeling that followed every time he kissed me there. "I love your giggle" he whispered "Yep, we are like every bad romance book" he laughed once more before we turned back to the purpose of this sitting position. His fingers guided me through the chords of Lego House when I slowly slipped my hands away from the guitar and let him take over. The cold, rainy day was the perfect setting for this moment. My favourite person teaching me one of their favourite things on a day where the weather was perfect.

Everything just feels perfect.

"I think I love you better now" he sang softly  in my ear, swaying us gently from side to side. Luke doesn't usually sing around me, he says he gets nervous around me. I find that ridiculous considering he can sing to thousands of girls on a daily basis, and has. But when Luke does sing around me it's always one line, and it's usually my favourite line. He sings and it takes me back to our first date and us dancing to Hot Chelle Rae in the back of a kebab shop. The guitar disappeared from in front of me and Luke's arms wrapped around my stomach as we sat in silence. The kind of comfortable silence where you don't have to say anything because nothing has to be said. You can just enjoy the other person, and the feeling they give you when you touch skin.

His arms unwrapped from around me, when his hands trailed down my arms, slowly making there way down to my hands. His large ones engulfed mine and entwined our fingers together before carefully wrapping me back up in not only his arms but mine. I heard Luke softly sigh against my head, the air from him giving me goosebumps. I turned my head slightly resting it on his chest as I noticed him looking down at me with a smile.