The World Through My Eyes [My Poem Collection]

I Lost My Way

I've lost my way, 

The scenery is different and strange. 

Maybe I never found my way to start with, 

I've been wondering, did it really change? 

Maybe I was the one not fitting in, 

Maybe it's always been this way. 

Maybe I've been blinded by hatred, 

Maybe it doesn't matter what I say. 

The people around me have changed, 

And I simply disconnected. 

I've been wondering, maybe I'm the wrong one, 

Maybe my mind has always been infected. 

What if I was to blame, 

What if it all was because I exist? 

What if they suffered, 

Because I always resist? 

These streets aren't mine, 

This house was never a home. 

These friends and family aren't mine, 

I'm still all alone. 

I've been wondering if I ever knew myself, 

Because now I don't recognize my eyes. 

What changed, what is different now, 

Have I always consisted of lies? 

Did everything around me change, 

Or is it realy me who is not the same? 

I'm so scared to fade away silently, 

I wonder, do I still have a name? 

Nothing feels real anymore, 

It's like I'm living inside a dream. 

I stand still but everyone is moving, 

It makes me want to scream. 

I lost my way, 

I don't know where I am anymore. 

I don't know what to do, 

Is there a "before" before "before"? 

I don't want to go back in time, 

Because the sun has never reached me. 

When is it my time to be happy, 

What if I don't have the right to be? 

I've forgotten how to live a normal life, 

I've forgotten what I was like before. 

I've forgotten what being human means, 

I've forgotten to close the door. 

I lost my way.