Saviour. 》 g.d.

3; Insecurities

"Shailene?" I heard Grayson call my name from behind my bedroom door. "Yeah?" I responded as I turned a page of my new book, laying on my side in bed. The door opened and Grayson shuffled into the room.

"Hey, I brought you some coffee." I sat up in the bed as he handed me a cup. "Thank you." I smiled at the sweet gesture while I placed it on the nightstand. "You've been stuck in this room all day.. are you doing okay?" He asked me heedfully. "I'm fine," I answered briefly. He nodded, obviously not buying it.

"How about I take you somewhere?" He suggested casually, his hands in the pockets of his jeans. I gave him a quick look. "Where would we go?" I asked him. This seemed out of the blue. "I know a place, and don't worry, it's not in the public eye." He assured. "Where is it?" I asked him again, but he refused to tell. "It's a surprise." He answered.

I threw my legs over the edge of the bed, laying my book aside as I turned more to Grayson. "I don't know.. I don't wanna risk being found.." I sighed furstratedly. All this hiding was driving me insane.

"Shay, you can trust me." He said, a soft chuckle at the end.

Our eyes were locked for a few seconds, until I nodded. "Alright." I finally agreed. Gray's face lit up. "Do you wanna go right now?" I asked him, cracking a smile. "No, we can go at like 6, 7." He told me. "Fine." I said with a trace of happiness in my voice. Grayson noticed it and smiled back at me.

He then walked out of my room, leaving me cheered up slightly, and a nice atmosphere in the room. A few days had passed ever since the night (originally) Ethan and I talked, and Gray joined in. I hadn't been feeling very happy ever since then. Ethan gave me some good advice, that wasn't the point. Just being so isolated from the rest of the world made me feel small and sad... scared? A mix maybe.

I missed my guitar, I missed singing out loud when no one was around. I missed working out..God! I'd been wanting to go for a jog for so long now. Being locked up killed my vibe so bloody much. I missed my friends and family so much. I felt so miserable.

I tried focusing back on my book again, but I couldn't. I really needed some head space, and I didn't know where Grayson was taking me to tonight, but I knew I could trust that he'd take me somewhere closed off from the public eye. Going out and getting away will do me good for a while.

I closed my book and put it under my pillow, then left my room to go after Grayson. I found him sitting at the bar, scrolling through his Twitter. Another something I missed. I greeted Ethan, who was laying down on the couch, then turned to Grayson.

"Hey, what do I wear tonight?" I asked him. He turned his head towards me, his eyes scanning over my current outfit. "Uhh, I'd wear something with layers. Like, if you get cold, you can put on a vest or a jacket. And just normal jeans." He suggested. I nodded my head. "Alright, thanks." I said, then looked at the clock. It was 4 in the afternoon now.

"I'm gonna hop in the shower real quick." I told Grayson, who nodded. I turned on my heel and walked into the hallway, and at the end of it entered my room. I searched through my boxes for a nice outfit, and chose to go for blue mom jeans with red roses sewn into the fabric on my left hip, and also into the fabric on my lower right leg. I chose a loose, white T-shirt that hung low on my left shoulder, and that I could tuck into my jeans for on top, and my old, black leather jacket over that.

I completed the outfit with a big, black belt, then took the pile of clothes plus a strapless bra and panties into the bathroom.

I ran the shower, undressed and got in. I took the time to get clean, though normally I'd have my phone with some music on. I really had to figure something out soon, because I was spiralling out of control.