our parents were back from Florida oh no "hey were back" Jeremy says he let go of my neck I zipped my top up "hey were in the pool" i acknowledged
20 minutes later we got out i put (pic above #1) on and walked back into Justin's room he went into the bathroom and came out 2 minutes later with something in his hand he shut the door and locked it
"what do you have in your hand" i asked "a pregnancy test" he whispered "what" i whispered shocked i'm not pregnant so who is "they were on the counter in the bathroom" he replied
"It positive" he added "oh no" i said "are you pregnant?" he asked "no" i said "But you were the last person in the bathroom"
"I'm not the only girl who lives here if I'm not pregnant then then that's my moms" i said "then way to go dad" he said then threw it away and came back "ew that's my mom" i said
"Jade and Justin come down" my mom shouted "coming" we shouted we went downstairs and sat down on the couch "Jade what's on your neck" my mom said "what" i said "is that a hickey" Jeremy says
"no" i covered it with my hand "move your hand away" i gulped and slowly moved it away "it is Justin you were supposed to keep an eye on her not let her have sex " she said "oh my god mom i didn't have sex"
"i did keep an eye on her most of the time" justin looks at me "so what mom your pregnant" i blurted
"how did you know that i was pregnant" she said "i um I didn't" scared a little "tell me how did you know that" she said
"i um I saw the test" i said quietly
1 month later
despite Justin's efforts to make me have a natural high being with him instead of the drugs i was using the alcohol i was drinking to numb whatever pain and suffering and shame I had. My old habits came back to me I went back to the drinking the drugs stealing my depression and anxiety i hid it extremely well this time getting high on whatever I could my mom sat justin and I down after all this was his house
"we're moving" my mom told me i stood up "I AIN'T FUCKING MOVING" raising my voice I ran outside i slammed the door shut i smoked weed out of a bong when justin walked out i didn't bother to hide it from him "Jade what the hell, DID YOU NOT LEARN ANYTHING FROM PRISON DO YOU WANT TO GO BACK" he screamed "Justin its to fucking hard i can't do this anymore, my mom hates me, my dad abused me the only part of my innocence is my virginity and getting high is more important than anything else"
"Getting high is more important than me and your family " he cried my silence was enough for him i walked into
in the house I changed into (pic above #2) justin was wearing (pic above) then we went into Justin's room and shut the door i sat
Criss-cross apple sauce on the bed Justin sat across from me "your not wearing anything under that" he said "I'm wearing underwear that counts as something" i said "you know what I mean" he said "what's the matter you don't like my boy shorts"
sitting on my knees and lifting my shirt "put that down what if someone comes in" he said pulling it down i sat back on the bed criss-cross apple sauce Justin looked at me "what" i said "They say bad girl on them" he says "so what" i say he kissed me passionately then deepened the kiss then licked my bottom lip for entrance evenif i was high at the moment this feeling Justin's touch was a feeling I couldn't get from any other drug
Unfortunately my mother was the next person to walk in "WHAT THE HELL, FORGET ABOUT EACH OTHER YOU SHOULD NEVER BE TOGETHER" "yeah justin don't need a Slut in his life were moving and that's finale" "no i'm not moving, and don't fucking call me a Slut cheated on the mother of his son, was in fucking jail when you're son was born" I yell and run out of the room I went to my room put the outfit i had on before and put the sweater in a bag along with a
bunch of other things, got my phone, charger, and anything else I needed for 2 months and I drove to a cheap motel
