Justin came over to me "I forgive you" he told me Cameron left i turned around "i forgive you i'm sorry i miss you and I love you i wasn't angry at you, but you need help, stop cutting yourself and be the jade i once knew do whatever makes you happy okay" he told me
2 days later I went back to california back my bags for Texas i walked into the treatment facility i locked up my phone and tablet after I turned them completely off i have physical therapy 3 times a week I'm wearing (pic above #1) "hey is there anything I can do for you, anything at all let me know" she said "okay thank you
2 weeks later
I stopped cutting i cut most of my hair off they make me eat alot so i gain the weught back i dont really eat though i have medicine i take for pain and stuff i got my first tattoo a J behind my ear I'm better I'm tryin to forget about Justin we also have group for depression i was wearing (pic above #2)
3 months later I was wearing (pic above #3) I feel so much better I'm so much happier and healthier i gained the weight back and I went home to California i landed and was greeted by my fans i smiled a real smile something that I haven't been able to do i took pictures with them and autographed there pictures then they asked if I was okay "yes i'm good thank you for asking" i said to them
I talked to them then i went to my house and it was messy i threw everything in my fridge and cabinets away i washed my clothes and i took a shower and then changed into (pic above #4)
I saw my family "oh my god hi guys I've missed you" i said running into the house smiling i hugged them "emma baby your so big now" i picked her up she kissed me "Jade are you okay" she asks "yes i'm okay" i told her I put her down "jade" someone said i turned around
It was Justin "woah you look different" i said "woah so do you" he chuckled i smiled "that's the smile i know" he smiled i laughed i stared at him "wow" i sighed i was happy "this is everything I'm so happy right now like I don't know" i told him smiling i couldnt stop smiling "how is it going with hailey" i asked
"over I'm done with that freak" he said i laughed "that bad" i said "Oh my fucking god you have no idea" he said "oh my god justin give me a hug" i told him he smiled i hugged him tight then let go "mom look at my stomach" i lift my shirt "you look healthy" she said "i know i gained the weight back" I told her
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I finished my tour I'm 19 i graduated high school I'm completely over justin stood least i think i am i haven't seen them in forever I'm so happy right now like I am working on creating new music about where I want to go i am wearing (pic above #5) Justin's 22 i was packing all Justin's stuff that he left here or i had i put in a box after that I looked at all the pictures of me and him i started taking them down I started crying i took them all down and put them in a box i was sobbing i guess I'm not over him completely
It was hard to do i drove over to Justin's house in the Ferrari he bought me to give it back to him I knocked on his door he answered "jade" he was surprised "were you crying" he asked "no" i lied he let me in i handed him the box "here" i told him
"everything I've ever had that was yours" i told him "so you were crying" he asked i nodded "you can keep this if you want" he told me I shook my head "what's the point we aren't together why would I" i told him he didn't say anything "i took down all of our pictures together do you want them i was gonna burn them but I can't do that" i told him "you're not over me are you" he asked "justin don't do this I'm happy without you or any guy I'm happy by myself" i told him
