November 2nd 1 hour later I was wearing (pic above #1) i live by myself in a beautiful home in LA i went out with my friends
I was on my 5th beer and i didn't know who I was with I was making out with them i pulled away "no stop this i cant i have a boyfriend" i snapped
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i slipped and drank alot i made out with my ex boyfriend hunter I went over to Justin's house crying i fucked up he's gonna hate me
"Justin can i talk to you" i cried "sure babe why are you crying" he asked he tried to kiss me i shook my head "i'm sorry i love you so much but I'm a horrible person and you don't deserve me i fucked up and im sorry i did something i was drunk and i and im sorry" i made out with someone else and now you hate me im sorry" i broke down in tears i looked at him he was crying "you deserve all the love in the world
and I'm sorry i hurt you i don't deserve to be forgiven" i cried "he kissed me and I didn't stop him at first then we were making out and I pulled away and I told him no stop this i can't i have a boyfriend i knew it wasn't you but it was Hunter and I'm sorry it's all my fault
"WERE SO DONE HOW COULD YOU, I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING I TRUSTED YOU, AND I DONT TRUST VERY MANY PEOPLE AND YOU CHEATED ON ME GET AWAY FROM ME" he screamed
I left his house and cried the whole way home I blame everything on myself I'm such an idiot i knew it wasn't him and I didn't stop him
November 24th
I was wearing (pic above #2)
Its thanksgiving day and I haven't left my house since justin and I broke up and I don't blame him i wouldn't forgive me either.. kendall and Kylie came over i laid in bed for a week they came upstairs "get up and take a shower did you here" kendall says pulling the covers off me "here what" i said "hailey and Justin are flinging" she said
"what...oh great my enemy and my ex boyfriend are dating" i cried "they're not dating it's promo to make her more famous" Kylie told me "how do you know" i cried "she told me" Kylie says
"I want my Justin" i cried "get up take a shower you'll see him at your family party" kendall says pulling me up "ugh fine I'll go but then I'm coming over to your dinner after" i told them I got a bra and pair of panties i walked into the
bathroom and shut the door and locked it and got into the shower I washed everything and shaved under my arms and legs and down there and then got out and dried off and dried my hair and put my bra and underwear on i put my contacts in and walked out i walked into my closet i changed into (pic above #3)
I did my hair and make up and tried to hide that I've been crying then I walked out "how do I look" i asked "amazing" Kylie says "I feel like shit" i grabbed my bag and put my wallet my glasses and my phone in my bag then
we all left i arrived late to my family's and I saw Justin's car i parked and got out i put my keys in my bag i knocked on the door i hoped to God that Justin didnt answer my mom did "hi mom" i hugged her she let me in then shuts the door "you came" she said "i did" i said i walked into the living room with emma
"emma you're so big now oh my gosh" i picked her up "sissy" she said i smiled i put my bag down i took my shoes off and put socks on and played with emma i turned around Justin was sitting on the couch i stood up straight and awkwardly looked at him
"hi" he says "hi" I awkwardly said "you came" he said "i did" i told him "i thought I mean um Chesley told me you weren't" he told me "i came i was kinda forced...I'm going to Kylie and kendalls house after" i told him " "um.....I heard about you and hailey..as long as you're happy" i told him
