2 weeks later
Getting high is way more important to me than justin i used to believe drugs couldn't do justice what justin did When I was 14 years old. Justin gave me a natural high his music inspired me his laugh and smile and personality made me crave more. being with him instead of the drugs i was using the alcohol i was drinking to numb whatever pain i felt when I was little justin was my drug i coul
dnt get enough of him and I wanted more and more to numb the pain now drugs and alcohol run my life justin thought prison would scare me but it didn't i knew his love was just to good to be true
I was almost seventeen and nothing else mattered to me other then getting high smoking pot, and drinking alcohol the distant Time between when I was sober and in a moment of weakness i turned to the justin i knew when I was
a little kid even though justin wasn't physically present in my brief moment of weakness i felt comfort and i told the "justin" i once knew to fix whatever the hell was wrong with me and give me the natural high i so desperately needed
Justin had been texting me asking where I was i ignored it for the most part I finally got enough courage to tell him where the hell i had been for the past two weeks he walked in the room shut the door and locked it and kissed me passionately then deepened the kiss then took
his jacket off without breaking the kiss I took my jacket off without breaking the kiss he pulled away from the kiss
I was in my room about to get high again when justin walked in "no jade stop drugs aren't the answer, stop this do you want to end up in prison for the rest of your life, getting high is not a solution to the problem" he yelled at me crying
"Well what the hell am I supposed to do justin I'm in pain i hate myself " i yelled at him my mom came in with a police officer and
the guy I never wanted to see again was standing in front of me i snapped I heard police sirens go off i stood up and looked out my window the officer forced my hands behind my back and pinned me against the wall I clenched in pain
The police officer held me back facing everyone
"mom, you did this, you called the police on me again" i snapped I clenched my face in pain
"Jade this is for your own good you need help i tried to do it once I'm doing it again" my mom says i looked at justin he was crying
"I'm sorry jade you cant keep doing i had to tell her" he confessed "YOU ASSHOLE.....I'm breaking up with yo, GO FUCK YOURSELF" i snapped he cried more
"how long" I asked
"3 months in prison and one month in rehab" the officer told me the tears came down my face "I'm sorry" justin tried to hug me I snapped "don't fucking touch me" i was walked out of my room and put in the back of the police car
Rehab was okay getting out was the best and i was discharged justin picked me up it was the most awkward thing I've ever experienced in my life we went to Justin's house I took a shower and then changed into (pic above)
I walked out of the bathroom i got a big box and got everything that ever made me high and put them in this box and taped the box and walked downstairs and made a fire in the backyard and burned the box with everything in it i ran into the house i got Justin's guitar and then walked downstairs and outside I sat by the fire and started playing my first song bad liar (Selena Gomez) I wrote in a little in prison and a little in rehab about Justin
I started singing "
I was walking down the street the other day
Tryna distract myself
But then I see your face
Oh wait, that's someone else
Oh oh, tryna play it coy
Tryna make it disappear
But just like the battle of Troy
There's nothing settled here
In my room there's a king size space
Bigger than it used to be
If you want you can rent that place
Call me an amenity
Even if it's in my dreams
Oooh you're taking up a fraction of my mind
Oooh every time I watch you serpentine
Oh I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to think about you
No, no, no, no, not to think about you
No, no, no, no, I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to give in to you
No, no, no, no, not to give in to you
With my feelings on fire
Guess I'm a bad liar
I see how your tension builds
It's like looking in a mirror
Your touch like a happy pill
But still all we do is fear
What could possibly happen next?
Can we focus on the love?
Paint my kiss across your chest
If you're the art, I'll be the brush"
Justin walked outside I continued to sing he Sat next to me
"Oooh you're taking up a fraction of my mind
Oooh every time I watch you serpentine
Oh I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to think about you (not to think about you)
No, no, no, no, not to think about you (not to think about you)
No, no, no, no, I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to give in to you (give in to you)
No, no, no, no, not to give in to you (give in to you)
With my feelings on fire
Guess I'm a bad liar
And oh baby let's make
Reality, actuality, a reality
Oh baby let's make
Reality, actuality, a reality
Oh I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to think about you (not to think about you)
No, no, no, no, not to think about you (not to think about you)
No, no, no, no, I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to give in to you (give in to you)
No, no, no, no, not to give in to you (give in to you)
With my feelings on fire
Guess I'm a bad liar
The song was on over "thank you" "for what" he asked I kissed his cheek I had to for what sentence came next that shocked the both of us
"justin i wanted you to call the police on me again" i confessed "I didn't call the police your mom did, but why" he asked "I needed help i wanted the drugs taken away from me by police, I wanted to go to rehab"
justin was a little taken back by this "you broke up with me" "I was confused at first I was angry but I realized you did it to help and I'm better but I think I need more than a one month rehab center" I confessed "do you want to get back together" he asked "no I would like to but I want to focus on me" I confessed
