she told me "my song sorry" i asked "no the mail man's song sorry yes your song i love that song that song is amazing" "thank you" i thank her "even though I still think you're an asshole"
she sat up from laying in my lap she was still in my lap but side ways she faced me and put one leg on each side of me and put my hat back on my head "Jade my head hurts, I don't feel good" i told her "Do you feel dizzy" she asked i nodded in pain she got off me she stood in front
of me i sat up and threw up on her shoes twice she looked at me put her pointer finger up "don't hit him, hit a pillow" then she screamed at the top of her lungs "MY FUCKING SHOES" she screamed at the
ceiling she let out a deep breath then looked at me "i'll buy you new shoes" i told her "first you better, second i told you but you didn't listen" she said i stood up and ran into the bathroom and threw up twice in the toilet then jade comes in
Back to me
I felt bad for Justin I tried to not show him i liked him but it was hard i just wanted to give him a big hug i kneeled down next to him and rubbed his back he threw up twice more than looked at me confused "what i did this to you, it's the least I can do" i told him he started
crying "oh no no i don't do crying" i snapped "my head" he whined "baby" i mocked him "can you be nice to me for at least an hour" he snapped "you puked on my favorite shoes" i acknowledged "not on purpose" he flushed the toilet then looked at me i looked at him
"do you want me to take you to the emergency room "please" he said i stood up and helped him up i drove him to the emergency room in my Cadillac escalade we were in the waiting room Justin was laying his head on my lap I wanted to scream but I let him be because he was in pain
"Justin bieber" the lady says we stood up and walked into the room they asked what was wrong Justin laid his head on my lap again i explained everything to the doctor they did some tests and he has a minor concussion they gave him a prescription for it and one for the pain I took him home his head was wrapped up "what did you do to him" my mom gasped
1 hour later
Justin and i were in my room talking "so what's your story, what makes you a bad ass" he asked " When i was 14 years old, i started using drugs, including alcohol, pot, cocaine and LSD. I also shoplift. I started a fire in the school bathroom i was expelled and I moved to California with my mom at 15 .
when I turned 16 i moved out, supporting myself through petty theft and drug dealing I'm a drug dealer. Meth, cocaine, ecstasy, pot, GHB, Special K. You name it, I have it, I sell it. I experience loneliness, depression, and suicidal ideation. i attempted suicide by trying to overdose on cocaine i am 16 i moved back home" i confessed "Dude are you insane do you want to go to fucking prison" he asked "no, I do it to numb the pain" he looked at me confused "my dad" I told him
1 month later
I was wearing (pic above)
Her phone started ringing she answer it And put it on speaker "hey Dakota jays here two so your on speaker" she said "hey justin listen, Jade why do you not have a boyfriend" he asked
"You're such an ass" she snapped at him "what you hang out with boys all time you dressed like them too "that's because i don't want a fucking
boyfriend i'm in love with someone i can never be with" she hung up and threw her phone across my room whose she in love with
(2 weeks later)
Back to me I'm high right now and there's no guarantee what I'll do but my first and only victim of what I'm capable of doing is Justin
Is she i don't think so but
she does where a lot of guys clothes and she has a lot of guy friends i have never once seen her hang out with a girl
"Whats bothering you" she asked me
"I um OK you look at a lot of girls and um are you gay cuz if you are i won't judge i just want to know" i blurted out
" I'M NOT GAY " she screamed
"I'm sorry i just said"
"I KNEW YOU WERE A FUCKING ASSHOLE YOU JACK ASS" she screamed
"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU THINK I'M GAY" i screamed
2 hours later
My friend Kendall Jenner came over and we watched movies "don't mind him he's an asshole" I told her reference to Justin "oh god what did he do" she asks "he thinks I'm gay" I told her
"I mean I don't have a problem with gay people I'm just not one how could you possibly think I'm gay" I added "well, um, you I can't I thought you were too I'm sorry"
"you think I'm gay too" I acknowledged"I stood up walked away "Jade wait I'm sorry" ran upstairs I ran into my room and slammed the door shut I locked it
I punched a hole in the wall I screamed in pain "you fucking asshole's" I screamed
"jade open the door what happened" justin asks I opened the door I ended up breaking my hand I got a cast on then we went back home
2 months later
(me)
I have been so mean to Justin lately
Right now Justin is playing drums with scooter in the basement i was sitting on the couch i was annoyed i ran downstairs and over to then "justin
" he couldn't here me "justin" i rolled my eyes i unplugged the amp "what the fuck do you want" he asked "if you don't try to be quiet....this is gonna be somewhere else I handed him the cord and went back upstairs
..20 minutes later
He started to get more loud then before are you fucking kidding me i ran downstairs and unplugged the amp again "will you fucking quit" justin snapped "JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP" I yelled
"you an your stupid drums can you can guys do something else" i asked
(1 week later)
I was changing when justin walked in
"GET OUT" i screamed at him mostly because i love him he's all over my room but he can't know that
"sorry" he said and quickly shut the door i finished changing then went to find him he was in his room
"please don't yell at me and tell me off I'm sorry i didn't know you were changing" he said
"OH I'M GONNA YELL WHY THE HELL DID YOU COME IN IF YOU EVER WALK IN AGAIN WHEN I'M CHANGING YOU'LL BE SORRY" i snapped he had tears in his eyes YOUR
NOT EVEN ALLOWED IN MY ROOM I TOLD YOU TO NEVER GO IN THERE SO FUCK YOU WHAT THE HELL DID YOU FUCKING WANT YOU JACKASS I'M
ALREADY INSECURE ABOUT MY BODY I DON'T NEED YOU TO MAKE IT WORSE AND EVERYONE HATES ME THAT'S WHY I'M SO MEAN TO PEOPLE I USED TO BE REALLY SWEET AND
NICE THEN SOMETHING HAPPENED AND I STARTED CUTTING THAT'S WHY WHERE ALL BLACK AND I WHERE BOYS STUFF TOO" i screamed in his face then i took a deep breath and stepped back "i never told anyone that what did i just do" i said
"You told me how you really feel about yourself" he said "But no one's supposed to know that" i said "Its okay i'll keep your secret " he told me I "justin i have to tell you something, I'm not gay" grabbed his arm and dragged him by the door to my room "this is my room I was afraid to show you because it's my secret no one knows no even my mom" I confessed "show me what" he asked
"promise you won't laugh" i said "I promise" he said "come on then" he followed me to my room I opened the door and we walked in and he started laughing "Hey you said you wouldn't laugh" i told him "i'm sorry i can't help it" he said then looked at me
"What?" i asked "You love me" he said
"Eww no go fuck yourself" i lied
"Don't lie this proves it" he said
