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"And oh baby let's make reality, actuality, a reality
Oh baby let's make reality, actuality, a reality
Oh, oh, I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to think about you
No, no, no, no
Not to think about you
No, no, no, no
Oh I'm tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Oh tryin', I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
I'm tryin', I'm tryin'
Not to give in to you
No, no, no, no
Not to give in to you
With my feelings on fire
Guess I'm a bad liar" I sang the song was over
....i went to the bathroom changed my tampon then Justin and i left and i walked out of the studio paparazzi flashed there cameras around us security were waiting by my car justin and I hurried and got into the back seat and shut the door and my driver pulled off i took my boots off and put sneakers on and changed into (pic above #1) "lunch" justin says "sure"
The driver dropped us off at the nice guy we ate lunch there i dropped justin off at the hotel and went home
2 weeks later
I got my hair done and dyed it brown
i cleaned my car and my whole house i had a little bit of time before I left for the air port to new York i finished packing my bag i got Esther and her stuff locked all the doors and went to the airport
I got on a private jet to new York in (pic above #2)
I landed and walked off the plane security had my luggage and my purse and went to to the car they put the luggage in the trunk and gave me my purse i got in the back seat and shut the door I shut the door put the seat belt on, the driver pulled off and took me to my hotel
next morning 5:30 I took a shower and then my stylist picked out my outfits for the day I changed into (pic above #3) then my makeup artist did my hair and make up by that time it was 7:00 and i left for on air with Ryan Seacrest i brought Esther with me
I sat down in the chair we went on air "we are in the studio with the very beautiful and very talented jade Rebelo...nice to meet you jade" Ryan announced i smiled "nice to meet you too..." i told them "okay so what is this outfit it's beautiful" he said "thank you i'm actually wearing Selena's dress" i told them
"okay i have to ask you this how has your life changed since where you were and where you are now "well I'll say this before
I left i cared more about getting high then I did my family also I was surrounded by people that never wanted the best for me that wanted me to fall in guess you could say, I mean some people wanted to see me succeed but I distanced myself from those people
now I'm surrounding myself with good authentic people that what me to succeed not see me fall" i explained
"Why did you leave..wait okay well let me ask you this why did you go to rehab
"I was tired of letting people control me, letting other people define me and letting people down and i was really sick i was diagnosed with lupus and I didn't understand my body and i felt like no one was on my side so I got the help i needed also that I wanted" i explained
"In this point at this very moment in your life are you happy with who you are now and is this where you want to be" he asked
"Oh um....100 percent I'm extremely happy I love what I'm doing andand from now on I'm gonna continue to do the things that make me happy not make other people happy " i explained
"Good for you " he told me "so your boyfriend was here " he added i interrupted "boyfriend..what boyfriend" i laughed "okay so hes not your boyfriend but your friends with Justin bieber" he said "and we gotta ask is being his friend hard" his costar person said i looked at her
"um...yeah but it's not him it's more about his fans shipping us together cuz some people feel like a guy and a girl can't just be friends without some feelings involved because him and selena were friends first and then
it became more but I love Justin and i want the best for him, watch he's gonna kill me later for this but he's my baby and I want to protect him but it's not boyfriend and girlfriend it's he's my best friend and then paparazzi don't help they get on my nerves"
I told him
"Do you ever think you and Justin will ever date" he asked "i don't know i mean i don't know what the future holds but maybe he's focused on his career right now and so am I but he has someone in his life his baby is Esther right now" I confess "oh Esther she is so cute" the lady says "yeah...she's here with me right now" i told them "aww...okay let's talk about this album high enough is number one in 50 countries congratulations what's your favorite song on this record" he asked
"Definitely bad liar, bad liar was the first song I've ever written" i confess
"Who is your inspiration" he asked "definitely justin his music is authentic at least 10 songs are me explaining my heart to Justin, the song thank you is about him because I thank him for telling me to get out of his life his house and me then getting the help i needed" i told him
