"you know it's not real right scooter whats me to make her more famous I'm not happy about it but I can't do anything about it i can't stand her she's obsessed with me" he explained to me i sat down on the couch
"you see it too like when we......um.... nevermind" i said almost crying at the last part "no what tell me" he said "you see it too like when we were dating she always wanted to hang out with me when you were there..she would be like is Justin gonna be there where's Justin at, is Justin here.....but......um...I guess she can have you now"
i told him the last part softly and slowly with a sad look on my face "yeah" he quietly spoke emma climbed on me the tears came down my face i looked at her "jade why are you crying did someone hurt you?" She asked "Um no sweetheart people cry because there sad or your sorry or you hurt someone" i kissed her forehead
"you sad" she asked i nodded "you hurt someone?" she asked i looked over at justin he had tears in his eyes i looked at her and nodded "yeah I hurt someone" i told her "are you sorry" she asked "yes" i told her "Do you wat the person to forgive u" she asked "no" i told her "why not" she asks
"because you have to forgive yourself before others can forgive you and I don't forgive myself, I'm in pain and i should be...now what's with all these questions" i smiled at her i tickled her she giggled i looked at justin he was crying i wiped his tears
"don't cry" i told him I looked at her " you hurt him" she asked me i nodded and broke down in tears i took her off me and stood up and ran away i ran upstairs and into my old room I shut the door and locked it i cried for 10 minutes and then tried to fixed my makeup as best I could then i walked out of the room Justin was sitting against the wall "um are you coming to my show on March 9th" he asked "um if you want me to" I told him "I do" he told me
We walked downstairs I said bye to everyone except justin "bye Justin" i told him we hugged for way to long i let go of him
February 9th
i haven't talked to Justin since Christmas I'm on tour and i got everything set up i wrote more break up songs i released all the songs I've ever written into 5 albums then I wrote more before the tour i released those to and it's my first show right now
I'm about to go on wearing (pic above #1) i came up on the lift after my opening acts came on the music to high enough start i started singing
Oh x4
I don't like anyone better than you, it's true
I'd crawl a mile in a desolate place with the snakes, just for you
Oh, I'm an animal, hand me a tramadol, gimme the juice
You are my citadel, you are my wishing well, my baby blue, oh, oh, oh
I used to like liquor to get me inspired
But you look so beautiful, my new supplier
I used to like smoking to stop all the thinking
But I found a different buzz
The world is a curse, it'll kill if you let it
I know they got pills that can help you forget it
They bottle it, call it medicine
But I don't need drugs
'Cause I'm already high enough
You got me, you got me good
I'm already high enough
I only, I only, I only got eyes for you
you see anyone other than me?
Baby, please
I'll take a hit of whatever you got
Maybe two, maybe three
Oh, you're phenomenal, feel like a domino, fall to my knees
I am a malady, you are my galaxy, my sweet relief, oh, oh, oh
I used to like liquor to get me inspired
But you look so beautiful, my new supplier
I used to like smoking to stop all the thinking
But I found a different buzz
The world is a curse, it'll kill if you let it
I know they got pills that can help you forget it
They bottle it, call it medicine
But I don't need drugs
'Cause I'm already high enough
You got me, you got me good
I'm already high enough
I only, I only, I only got eyes for you
Oh
Don't try to give me cold water
I don't wanna sober up
All I see are tomorrows
Oh, the stars were made for us
I'm already high enough
You got me, you got me good
I'm already high enough
I only, I only, I only got eyes for you
Oh
I only got eyes for you
Oh Oh
I only, I only, I only got eyes for you
