It's My Life.

Its My Life : Chapter 19

I Walked To The Park Nearly And Sat On The Closest Bench. I Looked Around At All The People In The Park, Happy Little Fuckers. Rub It In Why Don't You?!

I Couldn't Take It!

I Ran Home, Whilst Bumping Into Quite Alot Of People On The Way. They Hurled Insults At Me, But You Fink I Care?!

I Finally Got Home After What Seemed Like A Fucking Race To The Toilet! I Ran To The Spare Room And Locked The Door Behind Me. I Ripped The Covers Off The Bed And Laid Down In The Bed. I Wrapped The Sheets Around Me So Tight And Just Let The Warmth Consume Me.

I Took My iPod Out My Pocket, Its Always On Point.

Destiny's Child - Survivor

Now That You Are Out Of My Life, I'm So Much Better.

You Thought That I'd Be Weak Without Ya, But I'm Stronger.

You Thought That I'd Be Broke Without Ya, But I'm Richer.

You Thought That I'd Be Sad Without Ya, I Laugh Harder.

You Thought I Wouldn't Grow Without Ya, Now I'm Wiser.

You Thought That I'd Be Helpless Without Ya, But I'm Smarter.

You Thought That I'd Be Stressed Without Ya, But I'm Chillin.

I Got Pissed And Dashed It Somewhere Near The Window; The One Fucking Time I Needed You To Bee On Point You Fucking Play The Completly Wrong Song! ¬_¬

I Cried Myself To Sleep, Whilst Tossing In This Dumb Single Bed. What I Saw Through His Door Kept Repeating In My Head. But This Time When I Opened The Door They Looked At Me And Tyler Laughed And Told Me To Fuck Off.

I Woke Up At Like 3 In The Morning, Since I Had Slept The Day Away. I Realised I Was Still In My Clothes So I Changed Into My P Jays Then Went Downstairs. As I Walked Past The Living Room I Saw Jerome Sitting On The Sofa, Watching "The Final Destination". I Went Into The Kitchen And Put On The Kettle, Then Made Myself Some Hot Chocolate. I Took A Couple Of Custard Creams Then Walked Into The Front Room And Sat On The Opposite Side Of The Sofa.

"You Alright?" He Said With His Eyes Still Glued To The TV.

"..." No Words Could Come Out. My Eyes Were Permanently Red And Watery. I Had Cried So, Much Why Would He Do That Though? Urgh I Don't Even Want To Think About Him, Before I Fucking Hunt Him Down And Stab Him In His Likkle Bean Head! This Is Madness! I've Never Been Whipped Like This Before And He Had To Go And Fuck One Of My Friends, Ehem I Lied; She Ain't My Friend. I Carried On Watching This Shit With Jerome Until It Finished, Then He Finally Looked At Me.

"Shit, Are You Alright? What Happened?" He Looked At My Face Closely, I Probably Looked Like Some Any Tramp Off Road, But I Was Hurting Too Much To Care.

"Nothing..." I Sipped My Drink And Carried On Watching The Credits. I Saw Tyler's Name, And I Couldn't Help Myself. I Burst Out Crying. The Hot Chocolate Spilt All Over The White Rug As I Fell To The Floor And Curled Into A Ball. Jerome Tried To Pick Me Up But I Was Kicking My Legs About And I Hit His Ankle. He Kissed His Teeth But Carried On Trying To Get Hold Of Me. When He Did He Picked Me Up, He Was Carrying Me Like How A Man Picks Up His Bride At Their Wedding. He Sat Down And I Was On His Lap, Sideways. He Hugged Me So Nicely, Like How You Hold A Little Baby, He Was So Gentle.

We Sat There For Ages, And I Was Still Crying So Loud But It Didn't Seem To Bother Him.

My Crying Soon Stopped, Now I Was Just Sniffing Like Mad. He Was Softly Rubbing My Back And He Rested His Chin On My Forehead.

"You Alright Now?" He Whispered.

"...." Words Still Couldn't Come Out So I Just Nodded Slowly.

"Do You Wanna Tell Me What's Wrong?" He Looked Down At Me. I Didn't Answer, Not Because I Did Wanna Tell Him, I Really Did. But My Lips Still Weren't Working, And My Throat Felt Dry And Closed Up.