It's My Life.

Its My Life : Chapter 29 (Part 1)

So Just Pull The Trigger...

Trigger...

Trigger...

BANG.

Chapter 29

I Woke Up Practically Sweating A River. I Checked My Surrounding To Find Myself Still Sat In The Comfort Of My Fluffy Carpet. The Gun Lay Almost Camouflaged In The Wild Grass-like Flooring.

Did I Just Dream Everything?

I Couldn't Have; It Seemed All Too Real! .. Then Again I Don't Think I Have The Guts To Kill Someone.

I Shoved The Gun Back Into The Shiny Oak Box And Reluctantly Lifted Myself Off The Ground.

""Oi Bean 'Ed! Hurry Up Man, I Got To Go Home And Pack Soon!" Jevon Yelled From Downstairs.

Hmm.. Where To Stash This Fuckery?

I Slipped It In The Gap That Lay Between The Wall And My Rustic Style Bed. My Head Felt So Overweight On My Long Skinny Neck. I Rubbed It Abrasively In Attempt To Ease The Pain. I Failed Miserably.

I Clomped Down The Stairs To Find Jevon Waiting Calmly.

"Took A Might Long Time Ayy?"

Deja Vu Is Not The One, I'm Telling You.

I Laughed Half Heartedly As He Pounced Over And Hugged Me Warmly.

"What's Wrong?" He Asked Referring To Me Rubbing My Neck Vigorously.

"Don't Feel Well" I Moaned. He Pulled Me By My Arms Over To The Sofa. We Fell Into It And I Slapped My Head On His Chest. I Closed My Eyes And Tried To Mentally Fight This Pain Away. I Could Feel Jevon Moving Around A Bit Then He Coiled His Butter Colored Arms Under Mine. Usher's "There Goes My Baby" Poured Into The Room And Leaked Through The Walls Of My Skin.

"Do You Want A Massage?" I Nodded Abruptly And He Lifted My Hands Off My Neck. His Slightly Cold Fingertips Came In Contact With My Aching Neck. I Let Out A Sigh Of Relief: Cold. It Was What I Needed.

"Geeh, I Ain't Even Started." He Laughed. I Slapped His Forehead Mentally; I Love Abusing Him In My Head :)

He Began His Work: Each Fingertip Tapped My Neck, It Felt Like Half Warm Raindrops Falling. Slowly Each Tap Became A Circular Motion And Before I Could Realize It, It Became A Full On Massage. Each Motion Sent Me Deeper Into A Thing I Like To Call "A Lovers Coma". I Was Secretly Yearning For Him To Flip Me Over And Just Kiss Me All Over! But I Also Didn't Want This To End, It Felt So Much More That Just A Massage.

... You Don't Know How Good It Feels To Call You My Girl ...

Hmm.

Ooo.

He Changed The Rhythm Of His Motion Every... You No What? I Can't Even Measure It In Time. It Had To Be In Heart Beats. Every 5 Heartbeats Or So It Would Change From Going Up And Down To A Circular Motion, And Vise Versa. I Felt His Lips Slowly Caress My Skin. Mm.. You Remember When I Said His Lips Were The Sex? Yeah, He Was Reinforcing This Statement.

"I Love You..." He Whispered Into The Pores Of My Skin. I Responded By Facing Him.

"I Love You Too" My Eyes Were Open Now, But I Wished I Hadn't. I Literally Couldn't Help But Stare Wildly Into His Dark Eyes. And He Couldn't Help But Stare Back, Which Didn't Help Either. I Closed In And Softly Kissed Him. His Hand Automatically Dropped Lower Down My Body And Clung Onto My Shirt, As If It Were For Dear Life. "Best I Ever Had" Flowed Through Me As Though I Were In An Ocean Of Pure Pleasure.

... I Said You The, You The Best. You The, You The Best. You The Best I Ever Had, Best I Ever Had. I Said You The Fucking Best...

Our Lips Moved In Perfect Sync, Our Tongues Had The Perfect Rhythm. Everything Was.. Perfect.

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The Air Was Thick, The Temperature Seemed To Have Increased By A Thousand Degrees. We Had Crawled Up The Stairs And Tore The Clothes Off Each Others Backs. Now We Were Lying On My Bed, Cherishing Ever Second As It Came.

"Are You Ready?" He Murmured Into My Neck.

Time Froze.

Was I Even Ready For This?

Did I Even Wanna Lose It To Him?

"Huh?" He Said.

"Yeah" I Shook My Head In Disagreement To What Had Just Jumped Off My Lips. He Rested His Face So Close To Mine, Our Noses Brushed Against Each Other.

"Your Not Ready Are You?" He Had This Weird Look On His Face, I Cant Even Explain It. I Stared At Him Blankly, I Didn't Even Know The Answer Myself. I Gulped.

"I-I Dont Know." His Mouth Twitched A Bit.

"Its Alright, We Dont Have To If You Dont Want To" He Said As He Began To Slide Off The Bed.

"No Wait!" I Yelped.

"What, What?!"

"... I Do.." He Gave Me An Unconvinced Look.

"You Sure?"

"Yeah..."

"Urgh Dont Lie To Yourself" He Chuckled.

"Im Not.." I Looked Away From Him So He Couldnt Try And Read Me Like A Text. Out The Corner Of My Eye I Watched Him Tilt His Head And Place Kisses On My Shoulder. He Slipped Back Under The Covers And Resumed His Original Postion.

"Tell Me If You Want Me To Stop" I Nodded Shakily And Screwed My Eyes Shut. Fiery Hands Flickered Down My Thigh And Rested On The Peak Of My Knee. I Felt The Hand Push My Legs Open And Steal Ever Ounce Of Dignity I Had (Or Thought I Had) Left. He Slithered Into The Space He'd Just Created.

This Was It. It Was About To Happen.

I Felt It Plunge Into Me. The Pain Soared Through Me Like A Bullet. I Arched My Back And Dug My Fingers Deep Into The Matress. The Pain, Oh The Pain. One Thing I Would Forbidd Myself To Do : Scream. I Had My Lip In A Chokehold. Was I Really Meant To Enjoy This.. This Sheer Pain? As My Nails Dug Deeper Into The Mattress I Felt Him Go Harder.

AHHHHHHH! It's Hurt So Bad; I Couldn't Exactly Tell Him To Stop Though - Could I? I Tossed My Head From Side To Side So Frantically You Would Have Though I Were Having Some Peaaaak Nightmare!

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Minutes, Maybe Hours Had Gone By; And The Feeling Hadn't Withered Away Like I Hoped It Had. You Know What? I Can't Take It Anymore! Tears Are Practically Falling From My Eyes And He Hasn't Stopped!

"JEVON!" I Shrieked.

"Huh. What?"

"My Mums Coming Home Soon. You Should Go.." I Trailed Off.

"Kay" He Got Off The Bed And I Sat Up With The Sheets Draped Around Me. I Watched Him Get Dressed And He Was Gone, Just Like That.

I Flipped The Ipod Dock On And Put The Volume On Max. Instantly, More Tears Gushed Out My Head. My Cries Where Made Non-Existent By The Loud Music. I Looked Down... I Was Sitting In A Small Pool Of Blood...

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