Red Hearts// Sequal To Black Hearts ✔

Chapter Thirty One

Jax watched as the officers detained Mr. Perkins as he held Harlow close to him, lucky for the both of them Mr. Perkins's gun wasn't loaded, if it had been one of them would of ended up being rushed to the hospital, after getting into the truck and heading home Harlow got the phone call she had been waiting for Riley was going into labor. Since Harlow and Riley met they formed a friendship that Harlow never thought was possible, not only a friendship but someone to call when she needed help or to vent to, and the same went for Riley. Granted Harlow never expected Riley to fall in love with her father but that was just an extra perk and now Riley was giving birth to her little brother. Something she longed for growing up but never happened.

After Harlow ended up back at home when Riley was rushed to the operating room and the only person allowed in the room was Happy, he assured her to go home and get some rest.

"Babe what are we going to do about the news we got today?" Jax asked as they crawled into bed together

"I know the risks this time Jax, I'm not taking them. I cant imagine your life without me. Before I used to but now I cant, I cant picture you trying to start over because i want to be selfish" Harlow said hoping the Jax and her father would understand that she wanted to watch all of her kids grow up

"I understand babe, this is your decision but you are right I cant start over, that is something that I don't want to ever do" Jax said as Harlow curled up against his bare chest

"I dont want you to have to. So maybe we shouldnt tell anyone and just do it?" Harlow asked

"I think that is what we should do, I dont need anyone being an ass because we chose this" Jax said

"Okay then Ill make the appointment tomorrow" Harlow said as she kissed Jax's chest

"We are making the right choice babe" Jax said kissing the top of Harlow's head

"I know we are baby, i love you" Harlow whispered

"I love you too babe" Jax smiled as he felt Harlow slowly let sleep take over

Once Jax was sure that Harlow was asleep he slid out of bed and walked down the stairs to the living room and walking over to the bookcase, sliding out a few books to grab a black three ring binder and sat down on the coffee table and opened it and flipped through a few pages until he found the last one he had read reading random passaged his father once wrote

Anarchism stands for the liberation of the human mind from the dominion of religion; the liberation of the human body from the dominion property; liberation from the restraint of government. Anarchism stands for a social order based on the free grouping of individuals

I found myself lost in my own club. I trusted few, feared most. Nomad offered escape and exile. I didn't know if leaving would cure or kill this thing we created. I didn't know if it was an act of strength or cowardice. I didn't know, so I stayed. I stayed because, in the end, the only way I could hold this up was to suffer under the weight of it

I realized that in my own downward spiral of hopelessness I was actually falling into a huge hole created by my absence of basic human graces. The most obvious was forgiveness. If I was wronged by anyone, in or out of the club, I had to be compensated by money or blood. There was no turning the other cheek. When relationships became a ledger of profit and loss, you have no friend, no loved ones, just pluses and minuses. You are absolutely alone.

The true outlaw finds balance between the passion in his heart and the reason in his mind, The solution is always an equal mix of might and right

The concept was pure, simple, true, it inspired me, led a rebellious fire but, ultimately I learned the lesson the Goldman, Prudot and other learned. The true freedom requires sacrifice and pain. Most human beings only think they want freedom. In truth they yearn for the bondage of social order, rigid laws , materialism, the only freedom man really wants, is the freedom to become comfortable

Inside the club, there had to be truth. Our word was our honor. But outside, itwas all about deception. Lies were our defense, our default. To survive, you had to master the art of perjury. The lie and truth had to feel the same. But once you learned that skill, nobody knows the truth in or outside the club; especially you

Jax looked up to the mantle where a photo of his father and the first nine sat, standing up Jax lit a small fire in the fire place. Once the fire was lit he tossed his fathers manuscript into the fire. Grabbing a small notebook and a pen from the kitchen drawer Jax sat on the back porch and let the pen so his talking

Something happens at around 92 miles and hour- thunder-headers drown out all sound, engine vibrations travels at a hearts rate, field of vision tunnels into the immediate and suddenly you're not on the road, you're in it. A part of it. Traffic, scenery, cops- just cardboard cutouts blowing over as you pass. Sometimes I forget the rush of that. That's why i love the long runs. All your problems, all the noise, gone. Nothing else to worry about except whats right in front of you. Maybe thats the lesson for me today, to hold onto these simple moments. Appreciate them a little more- theres not many of them left. I don't ever want that for you. Finding things that make you happy shouldnt be so hard. I know you'll face pain, suffering, hard choices, but you cant let the weight of it choke the joy out of your life. No matter what, you have to find the things that love you. Run to them. There's an old saying 'That which doesn't kill you makes you stronger' I don't beleive that. I think the things that try to kill you make you angry and sad. Strength comes from the good things- your family and friends, the satisfaction of hard work. Those are the things that'll keep you whole. Those are the things to hold on to when you're broken

WELL THIS IS IT!!!! RED HEARTS IS OFFICIALLY OVER!!! I AM SOOOOOO GLAD THAT EVERYONE TOOK THE TIME TO READ, COMMENT AND VOTE. EVERY COMMENT, EVERY VOTE MEANT THE WORLD TO ME!!! THANK YOU!!!! I AM SORRY IT ENDED THIS WAY I REALLY REALLY AM BUT THIS GAVE ME A PERFECT OPPORTUNITY TO END THIS THE WAY I HAD BEEN PLANNING SINCE THE START OF IT ALL......THANK YOU AGAIN FROM THE DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART!!!

Wait a second, dont get all upset!!! Do you really think i am finished with Jax and Harlow? ABSOLUTLEY NOT!!!!!!

Be on the look out over the next day or two for the third and final book of hearts

FULL HEARTS