An ordinary girl

chapter-6

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"Love is a fairytale and change is the reality"

They say love gives us fairytale atleast once in our life and I guess it already gave me my fairytale but the prblem is it ended as soon as it started and I soon came face to face with the reality of love and life.

As I sat in the balcony with my phone in hand my thoughts ran widly. The conversation I had with Suhana was still fresh in my mind. I was never the one to gush about my relationship except for sharing some of my problems with Suhana but still people who knew me well like some of my close friends would always tell me that Vansh isn't right for me. I always wondered why they were judging him or even comparing him with anyone but now when I think from there perspective I know why they said so because maybe they have seen the real person behind those promises and care Vansh has always showed. He too was never very found of my friends and is still not.

I remember the times when we use to fight for my choices of friend and the most important thing is I have never been allowed to have any guy friend because according to him a girl and a boy can never be friends.

This was one of those topics which always created tension between us and at last it was me who has to accept his decision. He has always been so possessive infact I shouldn't say possessive rather I should say he has been so over-possessive that he has the habit of checking my phone and than there were times when he would doubt me and even go to the extend of hacking my accounts and would blame me for everything. I on the other hand would always feel hurt and depressed and I would be the one to apologize to him even if it wasn't my fault but what hurted me most was that he would never ask me or tell me what was happening, he just did one thing and that was to blame me.

I clearly remember when he use to tell me that I don't love him and am stabbing him in the back but what he never realised was that I had no intention of doing such thing and I am too a human being and am bound to make mistakes too but he never had that much of time to ask me what my problem is, what is making me depressed rather he had times to question me and blame me.

His possessiveness regarding my male friends is still acceptable to me but what isn't acceptable is the fact that he had problems with me uploading my pictures and even when I am allowed to do so it is mandatory to tag him or else he considered it as going against him. I remember the time when he told me "why can't you tag me? what's the problem in it, you don't want other boys to know about us, to know about our relationship and the fact that you are dating."

And that's what hurted me most. The one who are important to me have always known about him and so has almost all my relatives. He has met all my friends still his obsession has only increased.

There were even times when I had fighted with my parents for him. There was this time when my parents were totally against the idea of me and him but still I stood with him and never left his side but when ever I needed him he wasn't there and has always left me in my depression alone. And whenever I would tell him this he would simply state that he was busy or I never told him about the problem but the thing is I would have told him if he would have listened.

Sometimes I really wonder is he really the person I have fallen in love with, is he really the person he use to show in the starting or was it just a joke and a way to make me fall in love with him.
That's the hardest thing to do to distinguish between what was and what is, the problem of drawing a fine line between reality and dreams.

The ways in which he has hurted me are endless and so are the variations of being hurt, sad and depression. I know I shouldn't be thinking much about it because these are just half the things he has done and not as bad as the other problems I have faced because of him. Closing my eyes I took a long breath and tried to push my thoughts aside claming my breaths I decided to call it a night and headed to bed with just one thought that whatever it is, it surely isn't love.

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