An ordinary girl

chapter-31

"Sometimes you have to realise that it is enough each and everything and its better to let it go then to hold on it and regret it later"

I sat for hours after he left holding my phone and calling him but it wasn't answered. After a while he switched off his phone and made me realize what a fool I was. He degraded me and here I am trying to reach to him to make him understand what the situation was and it was just a reaction for what he said and nothing else. I guess it was high time for the truth to be realized and for realizing one's own worth. What I don't understand is why the hell I'm still trying to make it work. I should have let it go at the very beginning of my degradation and should have taken things in my hands. I guess I was blind in my love and regret that I wasn't able to see his truth and that's my biggest mistake. Getting up I called Suhana and told her everything and she told me that now is the time to let him go because I am ruining my happiness in order to make him happy.

She was right and I knew that this time I won't be trying anymore and that's what I was afraid of. The fact that the day I realise my own worth will be the end of this relation and see that's where I am standing. Though somewhere I have made my decision I still want him to call me and atleast apologize for his mistakes and for one's make me feel the beauty of true love.

I wasn't in a state of shock but yes this incident has let me see the truth that I wasn't able to see for so long. I made my mind that this time no matter what happens but I am not gonna call him unless he does. I held my ground and sticked to my decision of not calling him. I cried and felt bad but still this time I held on to my respect. The night was spend in crying and making myself strong.

The next day wasn't any special just the usual stuff. Getting up, going to work and then coming back and sitting in my favourite place with all those thoughts and checking phone for his calls but he never called and I knew that he will not apologize. As I sat there lost in my own thoughts my phone rang and the caller id read Vansh's name. Saying that I was suprised will be an understatement because I was shocked and somewhere happy too that he called me.

"Hello" I said answering the call but at the other side I heard his mother's voice instead of his.

"What is going on Sanaya?" she asked me making me little confused

"Nothing" I told her

"Don't lie to me. Just tell me what has happened between you and Vansh? He isn't well and you didn't even bothered to call him and ask him" she said making me realise what the matter was

"Why don't you ask her mummy that what the problem is" I told her

"He isn't in the condition to talk that's why I am asking you. Now tell me did you both have a fight?" she asked me

I never wanted to tell her what has happened or what was going between me and Vansh but I knew that this was the time to reveal and not to hide. So I told her "he disrespected me and pushed me. He called me nasty things and this wasn't the first time before also he has done things like this. I love him but that doesn't mean that he will disrespect me or raise his hands on me"

I thought that she will understand afterall she is a women but what she told me was enough to make me realise the entire truth. She said "this isn't such a big deal. He didn't do anything wrong and all these small things happens. Why to create an issue out of it"

Controlling my anger I told her that "it is an issue because he just can't disrespect me no matter what. My parents haven't raised me for this they didn't educate me to be brought down by a man just because of love."

"You love him and he loves  you then why are you thinking about everyone else. See just get married and live together and its ok if he did any such thing. All this happens in a relation and you need to understand it" she told me

The way she spoke and the way she told me how it wasn't her son's fault but just a normal thing made me realise one thing that if I marry Vansh I won't be able to live because my parents were against us and if I marry him by going against them then I will ruin my life because he would never change and his family will always support him no matter what he does. I made the final decision the one which I should have taken long ago but I wasn't ready to take it. I told his mother " I am not gonna marry your son ever and tell him no need to call me now. Everything between us is over now." and with that I ended the call.

Keeping the phone aside I felt that pain and tears of letting him go but I was able to feel the calmness too as if I have left back all the negativity. I know it will be hard to live without him but atleast I will be happy and free. Afterall it's high time and what good can ever come by holding on something which is destroying me in the end.