Julian
Saturday
Rosanna
"Baby, just hear me out. I know I messed up."
"Why can't you just give me some space? That's really what I want. I just need some space Julian."
I refused to look at him but I knew he could tell I was hurt.
"Baby."
I sighed. "Okay Julian, explain."
"I was so upset after you told me what happened to you. It upset me so much to know that somebody put they hands on you in. Knowing that somebody hurt you in such ways, I was mad so I told Freaky about it then when we were smoking he brought it up in front of Wayno. Then Wayno said that ignorant shit." I watched as he shook his head.
"But it was never my intention to hurt you baby."
I looked down.
Julian took a step closer to me.
"Be honest. Does it bother you that I can't have kids?"
I saw Skai run around the kitchen table before running out of the kitchen.
"No."
I finally looked up at him. I could tell he was being honest.
"Honestly, I would love to have kids with you in the future but baby, that isn't everything to me. I'm not gonna leave you because of it."
Julian stepped closer to me, totally invading my personal space.
My eyes were tearing up. I was feeling extra sensitive right now. I don't know if i'm crying because of Julian's sweet words or because I feel bad I can't give him the kids he wants.
"I'm sorry." I spoke up.
Before I could say anything else, Julian shook his head and grabbed my hands.
"Rosanna, you don't have to apologize. You don't have anything to be sorry for."
I couldn't stop the tears and I broke down, leaning into Julian's chest. He wrapped his arms around me, embracing me.
"I can't give you what you want." I sobbed.
One of the worst feelings is not being able to give your man something so significant. Something that only you're supposed to give him. It hurts, especially if you want kids yourself.
It's hurts and it can make you insecure. You get scared thinking your man will leave you for another woman, a woman that can give him what he wants, a better woman..
All these thoughts only made me cry harder. Julian pulled me back making me look at him.
He placed a hand on each side of my face, using his thumbs to wipe away my tears.
"Baby, listen to me. I love you, okay?"
My breath got caught in my throat as the words left his mouth.
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Work It Out (Dave East)
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