My First & Last

chapter 6

Jack "pov"

From the first moment I saw her I knew her, she was rose my Rosie, she's still the most beautiful girl in the world, she didn't change, only became more feminine, her perfect soft pale skin that I want nothing but to feel it against my body, her smooth brown hair that I want to run my fingers through it, her wide hazel eyes and full moist pink lips that I desperately longed to kiss, her perfect body that am sure would fit perfectly in my arms, I wanted to hold her to feel am not dreaming, but I can't she would freak out, there is no way she would recognize me after all this time, I changed a lot
I didn't expect to see her here, at first i kept asking What is she doing here and then I knew she's working, she have become really strong I could tell from the way she was talking to me, she didn't know I was her boss and she looked beautiful when she's angry She's still feisty as before I couldn't help but watch her almost losing control, her perfect pink lips that I wanted nothing more than to kiss at this moment, I needed to go away like right now before I do something stupid

I met her at the old restaurant we used to visit when we were kids, I always come here once a week for the past ten years
I couldn't take my eyes off of her, I wish if I could hold her in my arms, kiss her, stare at her beautiful honey eyes to see my reflection in them, to just wake up every morning with her in my arms
she didn't remember me and am willing to keep it that way at least for now, there is a lot of things going on that she doesn't know about and I don't want to make her worry and get involved, not until everything is done and then I hope she let me take her in my arms again
She was and still the only person I loved, she is my world, not a day passed without me thinking of her, dreaming of her lying next to me, I looked for her couple years ago and I found out that she was living with the smith's, I was relieved because I knew they are a really nice people, I've meet them couple of times before, And asked them about her, I couldn't get myself to see her knowing I would get weak, I don't want to drag her into the past, I want her to be happy without a pardon

The moment I walked in the restaurant and I saw her sitting there with Mr. Smith my blood boiled, What are they doing here? together?
I know they've known each other more than ten years but this is looked like a date, he was holding her hand and she let him, I could tell he likes her from the way he looked at her, I sat with them on purpose which is to ruin whatever they were having, I know I have no right to do this, but I just couldn't hold myself and I know demi's going to tease me about it later saying am whipped
She looked really uncomfortable I could tell she was feeling lonely, she looked sad, I hate seeing her like this but I didn't know what to do with sam and demi there before I could say anything else she left to the ladies-room.

Once she went to the bathroom Sam turned to look at me with confused eyes
"so you still didn't tell her?" Sam asked me with a look that really annoyed me "didn't tell her what?" I reply trying to sound calm
last thing I want is to show him the anger am holding inside just because he was sitting next to her or holding her hand touching her like it's something normal for him to do
"that you are jack Collins" he replied and I felt the room tighten around me, how did he knew? and have he told her already? what does he want? and ofcourse am not going to show him that am freaking out and there is no way am denying it, I would only look ridicules 

"Mr. Smith I don't know how you know this but am not planning to tell her yet so I hope if you don't, I will tell her when the right time comes" I reply looking at him and I knew he understood what am saying
"my mother told me the other night about the whole thing, and am not in the place to say anything, just please don't break her heart again, she have been through a lot, she's like a sister to me and I would not sit and watch her get hurt again" Sam says to me with stern voice showing me he means what he said
I couldn't help but feel pain when I heard that I broke her heart I mean I know I vanished from her life but it was for her sake, I promised myself once I find the murder of our families I would do anything to win her back, But what !! she is like a sister? Is this a joke?