My First & Last

chapter 13

Rose "pov"

I was frozen in my place feeling my vision getting blurry, I couldn't believe what I was seeing
Jack sitting on the couch and Mari on his lap kissing him and he seemed to like it
I turned my heels to leave when I heard chris's voice
"rose what took you so long?" chris asked walking in the living room only to be frozen at the view in front of him as well

Jack pushed Mari off of him as soon as he heard Chris's voice, he stood up looking at me with regret clear in his eyes
"dude what's going on?" chris almost yelled at jack, I could tell he didn't want the others to hear him
I just stood there looking at him and mari, I was holding my tears I can't and won't break down in front of him and give him the pleasure of it, and i don't want to make her smile even more at my expression, I turned to leave, I cant be in the same room with him, I felt betrayed even if there wasn't anything between us, last night he kissed me he made me feel that he only wanted me, why was he doing this to me? Have I done something to hurt him?

"Rose i.." I interrupted jack "Chris lets head outside the desert is about to be served" I say to Chris who only looked at me with sorry, why was he feeling sorry for me i really don't care at the moment
"am sorry for intruding Mr. Robbins, we are leaving so.." I say to jack who stood frozen looking at me
"mari go outside, chris" jack said to mari and nodded his head at chris, they just left without saying a word and I wasn't going to stay with him in the same room alone, I was walking to the door when I felt his hand holding my arm
"rose it's not what you think it is" jack says turning me to look at him
"it's okay who am I to say anything, you don't need to explain yourself to me" I say trying to sound calm
"rose don't be like this" jack said with a sigh closing his eyes
"be like what?" I asked him trying to play dump
"let me take you home we will talk later" jack said giving me the look of follow me
I followed not because I wanted to talk, Its only because I didn't want to stay alone with him here and just get back home
"sorry guys we have to go, I have an early meeting tomorrow morning" jack says not looking sorry at all only in a rush
"it's only nine, did something happen?" Lois and nick asked at the same time
"no nothing happen, am just tired, I will meet you guys this weekend" jack said calmly, am amazed how he could act like nothing is bothering him
"Thank you for the dinner, it was nice meeting you all, I hope to see you again this weekend" I say smiling and hugging the girls
"sorry about what you saw" chris whispers in my ear and surprisingly hugging me, I know he was a Stranger I just met but his hug made me feel save, he was warm ... he is warm  I felt like he was my caring old brother.
"chris" jack says in a low angry tone "okay man, but I don't really want to talk to you at this moment" chris says pulling away from the hug giving his back to jack
Why was he giving him the cold shoulder, chris was mad because jack was kissing mari, maybe he liked mari? But he didn't show any sign the whole night, oh god maybe chris is gay, but he didn't look gay he looked perfect, but looks can be trick
Everybody gave us suspicious looks but said nothing, i guess chris will fill them with what happened after we leave not that i care or think it 's important
"thank you chris" I whisper to chris and I could tell he heard because he turned to face me with a sad smile
"good night everyone, thanks for everything again" I say trying to smile

The whole ride was silent, I didn't want to talk to him, I didn't know what to say and he didn't open his mouth to say anything

We parked in front of my apartment building, I stepped out of the car and jack was standing in front of me
"good night" I say trying to pass him "rose wait" jack says placing his hand on my shoulder turning me to him
"what?"I reply with calm tone
"what you saw today it was nothing" jack says looking straight into my eyes
"nothing like kissing me last night?" I asked with controlled tone batting my eyelashes at him
"rose no it's not like that" jack says with a sigh "mr.robbins what I saw today is none of my concern it's your life there is nothing between you and me" I say trying to turn again
"rose don't act like this" jack says with almost angry tone and he had no right to be....
"act like what exactly?" I asked with narrowed eyes, I was getting really angry "why.. why are you doing this to me, why you keep on playing with my feelings?" I asked feeling about to break down again
"i.. I didn't mean to i.." he said and paused for a second "the last thing I want is to hurt you rose. it just everything is so complicated we cant be together even if I wanted to, not now" jack says with low tone like he was trying to control himself
"why? Tell me ?" I asked feeling hurt at his words, I already knew he would say them someday but it still hurt hearing them
"rose.." I interrupted him "is it because you have a girlfriend or because am not at your standers" I say not really wanting to hear his answer
"what!?...no it's..." I interrupted him again "don't worry I won't talk about this again, you don't need to clear yourself I already know the answer" I say looking down not wanting to look at his face at the moment
"rose just listen to me" jack said taking a step closer to me trying to touch my hand
"please don't" I whisper about to cry, I don't want him to touch me anymore, I felt disgusted and used
"rose am.." he said taking a step back looking really hurt
"see you at work tomorrow mr.robbins, good night" I say to him looking down before walking to the building door a tear fell on my cheek, he stood still in his place looking at me walking away from him