Everything Blue [ OMHK, Book 2 ]

Grey

"A desire not to acknowledge depression in ourselves or those close to us – better known these days as denial, is such a strong urge that plenty of people prefer to think that until you are actually flying out of a window, you don't have a problem"
-Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

J E N N A

"They're gonna meet us at Brooklyn park," Harmon announced, chewing on a bite of my pancake.

I shifted my gaze up in irritation. "We're seriously gonna go to the park? What's next... you gonna send me off on a romantic date with Luna too?"

"I wouldn't," he winked as I popped a strawberry into my mouth. The sweet taste reminded me of Tyler.

I wanted to claw my hair out in frustration.

Everything I did — everything I thought of — reminded me of Tyler.

Was that what love is? Letting yourself slip into such deep infatuation with a person that their mere existence occupied all the empty crevices in your brain?

Every part of Tyler was moulding forms and taking shelter in my mind, as if to evict all my rational thoughts and replace them with emotion-fueled disasters. Now everything was shrouded behind a thick fog, and I couldn't escape it.

Love was terrifying, and love was human.

"I'm done if you guys are," Josh announced, using his knife and spoon as drumsticks on the glossy wooden table.

I'd only eaten half of my pancakes before losing my appetite. No matter how hard my brother and his boyfriend tried, my terrible mood wouldn't budge, and I knew it wouldn't change until Tyler either woke up, or died.

I was already started to come to terms with the fact that the boy I was in love with was probably going to die anyways. It was better to start the healing process sooner than later.

Josh tipped our server with a fifty, even though our bill was only $76. He just shrugged and waved a hand dismissively when we questioned him about it. "Never hurts to be nice."

"I guess," Harmon said, holding the door open for us. Just as we stepped outside, I almost ran smack dab into a tall, blonde girl.

She began to apologize, but when she glanced up, her eyes widened. The girl that she'd been talking to gasped, and I immediately realized it as the 'holy shit is that Josh Dun?!' gasp that I was so used to hearing around Tyler.

Apparently, Josh heard it too, because he grinned at the girls, throwing them finger guns. Harmon snorted at his boyfriends display of recognition.