He Calls Me Harmony

Chapter seventeen: Wishing Wells And Fairytales

The facets of love is a condense mixture of looming spirituality. The spirituality of love is given through the ability to share it among two persons. Most often find themselves lacking in the immersion of love and engulf themselves with insecurity. Insecurity refrains one from loving themselves,therefore making them incapable of loving someone else. Yet when one decides to give into love,it heightens their senses and elevates the spirituality of love itself. Seems quite complicated but authentic.

One asks how two beings can lay in bed without the sensual thoughts. The answer is simple,when one is in love intimacy isn’t a priority. Love isn’t about intimacy. Love is a consistent basis of two hearts. That’s how I feel as I lay and hold her. The warmest feeling; holding another being. Allowing her to listen to my beating heart. At times I wonder what made her walk into my life. Was it fate? Is it destiny? I try not to ponder on it for too long. The moment I ponder on it too long could be the moment she slips through my fingers. I watch her figure through the light of the moon seeping through my window. Her skin seems to glisten,her beautiful chocolate hue. Her steady breaths on my neck,makes me shiver in delight. I can’t sleep. Not with her next to me. I have to stay awake to interpret all of her beauty. I am afraid I will miss something,even in her slumbering state. Excluding the fact I suffer from the first stage of insomnia. . A sleeping disorder that has been eating at me for years now. Doctors have no known accurate cure. I learn to cope and live with it just as I do with my vitiligo. Tonight could be different. I feel more at eased. Her being in my arms gives me a sudden manifest of serenity. Her sweet sighs of slumber lulls me. The simple satisfaction of her being here with me,is all I need to sleep peacefully tonight. I finally allow my eyes to close to retire into a slumber of my own. The next morning I arose to birds singing their songs of morning glory. I looked outside to glance upon the new day that has dawned on us. I am brought out of my trance by a shifting Joya. I quickly shift my gaze from the window to the beautiful iridescent beauty before me. I give her a warm smile. She returns with a sleepy one. We continued to stare at each other silently. I didn’t want to break the beautiful silence. Evidently neither did she. She sits up and gazes out the window. Moments passed by when she finally broke the silence. "I always wondered about thing's ", She said softly. I sit up and looked at her to continue. "Sometimes I long to be different, Sometimes I think low of myself,  there's always something I wish to change", She continued not taking her gaze from the window. I continue staring at her contemtly. I am trying to read her body.language. It's subtle but inigmatic. She sighs turning her gaze on me. "Do you feel that way at time's? ", I nod. She gives a small smile. "Michael what's the root of insecurity? ", I hesitate to answer.  It was a good question. One of thoe questions where there seems no one answer. Her pupils widen with curiosity. I finally find a answer. "It's something mental that turns emotional ", I stated glancing out the window once more. She nods. "I had a problem with that, I still do", She whispered. "I never undestood it Sometimes I feel like I-I-", "Live up to other's expectations? ", I said glancing at my hands. She nods knowingly. "Harmony know that with me there will be no expectations, I love you as you are, I'll show you that I speak nothing but truth", I turn my gaze to her again and gently took her hand. Her face is full of puzzlement. I smile. "In due time you will understand Harmony ", I said placing a kiss on her hand. She cheeses. The rest of the morning went as so.

Everyday I fall more for her. Learning her fear's and insecurities of life, made my mission of love a more meaningful one. I would like to one day fulfill the void of insecurity with love. That day there will no longer be a war between acceptance and relevance. There will be no confusion of self-love. No battle for self-confidence. Those thing's will cease to exist. That's what love can do. If it takes my entire life proving that to Joya then so be it. Today, I wish to began my mission. "Would you like to go to the park?", I stated. I can feel my cheels burning from embarasent. It was a bit of an 'out of the blue' question. She giggles. "Are you asking me on a date Mr. Jackson? ", She teased through giggles. My face was truly burning now. "I-I guess I am...", I trailed off into a whisper. She springs up out of the bed. I look at her in confusion. She smiles like a little child who just received it's favourite candy. "You're confusion is adorable Michael ", She exclaimed waking towards my dresser. I continue watching her as she fiddles with my knick-knacks. She gasps and swirls around facing me. "Can we go to the park Michael please? ", She said pouting her lip a bit. I chuckle. "You are unpredictable at times", She playfully crosses her arm's over her chest. "And what does that mean my good sir?", She stated in her terrible English accent (It sounded more so like a intoxicated Australian ). Yes her accent is that bad. I giggle. "Nice accent, But it is a good thing your spirit is a beautiful thing to watch", There I go blushing again. "If that makes sense", I quickly added. She cheeses. "Thank-you ", I nod. She walks towards my room door and slips on her shoe's. I hop up and did the same.

We decided to take a long stroll to the park. Which is convenient for us seeing as though the parks location isn't too far from my home. As we walked we reminist about life in Gary. Now that I think of it, I miss Gary. "I miss the ice cream parlor ", Joya whined as we entered the gates of the park. I nod. "Wait that reminds me I never got revenge for my mustache you killed!", I exclaimed stopping in front of a juggle gym. Joya looks lost for a second then gasp knowingly. "Oh wow I cannot believe you are still mad about that ", "Why wouldn't I be? You killed my beautiful mustache friend he hadn't even seen the world for fifteen seconds before you murdered him", I pouted playfully. She giggles and begans climbing on the Juggle gym. She climbs to the top ladder like level. I glance up at her. "So you are going to ignore me?", She ignores my question and looks around. I smirk. "So you brought me here to ignore my claims?", She doesn't respond just hop's down. She strolls over to me. "May I say that your mustache was devine! ", She exclaims quickly taken off before I can respond. I follow her. She ran me around the swing set and into a whirly slide where she stopped in her track's. I stand at the end of the slide panting. "I-I think...I think I'll just forgive you...This is too much", I panted out. She let's out her infamous giggle of victory. She slides down. "And that's I need to hear", I shake my head as she begans a jig. Which was quite comical considering the fact she has no rhythm.

After a few more giggles we retired to the swing sets. Joya sat in the swing adjacent to mine. She slowly swung her feet back and forth looking into the sky. I just sat and watched the sky. "You know when I was a child I would go outside in the evenings and watch the sunset, But just before it set I would close my eye's and make a wish", I said softly. Joya slows her swing and glances at me. "What did you wish for?", I smiled, more so to myself. "Understanding ", She nods. "What would you wish for if wishes came true?", I asked still watching the sky. She sighs softly. "A prince, a prince who would whisk me away, I know it's silly and elmen-", "No no it isn't, It's beautiful", I said now looking at her. She looks down. "I also would wish for someone to love me, in every way one can give love, I want to have that one day", I glance at a pebble on the ground. "But..",  She continues. "I realized I shouldn't wish for thing's I already have", "What if I cannot give you that?", She smiles wider. "Then I will be happy with what you have given me", I smile contempt with her response. I quickly hop out of my swing and gently pulled Joya from hers. "I want to show you something I found when I first moved here", I exclaimed running towards my findings. Joya giggles while trailing behind. I stop in front of a well. Joya glances at it curiously. "It's a well, a wishing well", I stated pointing at it. She nods. I pick through my pockets for a coin. Once I found one I hand it to Joya. "Go ahead make a wish", I whispered. She glances at the coin the closes her eye's. After a moment she opened her eye's and tossed the coin into the well. She continues to stare at it. "What did you wish for?", "I can't tell you it may not come true ", I sigh. "Ok fine have it your way", I pouted. She laughs. "That I will Michael ", I couldn't help but laugh along. "Ready to go?", I said after gaining composure. She takes my hand and nods. I smile and we began walking. I take one last glance at the well. Hopefully wishes do come true....

To Be Continued...